Today was a little better. We were still housebound from the ice, but my husband wasn't here and I kept the kids on schedule. I planned activities to do with them when they were getting restless and bickering and that worked well.
I have been on a baking kick since we've been "trapped" at home. On Monday I made goldfish crackers for Collin. He really misses those and I've been promising for a while that I would make them for him. They don't taste like the real thing, but he loved them still. Yesterday we made valentine sugar cookies for the party that didn't happen today. And today I attempted to make poptarts. They tasted really good but they crumbled and fell apart really easily. But I have enjoyed my baking adventures. I would really like to make angel food cake if we are housebound again tomorrow.
Food Report
I planned my food today. I knew I would want some of the cookies I made so I planned to have 2. I had 3 instead. And then I had the poptart. Actually I had about one and a half. So, not good. Dinner was fine and I plan to have a WW icecream bar after this.
I am starting Sarah's "one thing focus" plan. Just focus on one area with food, and don't worry about the rest. So I am focusing on cutting out crunchy, salty foods like cereal, pretzels, chips, popcorn. I already gave up chips for Lent. So I'm adding the other foods in. I realized how much of a problem those foods are for me when we were out of pretzels, cereal and I'm not eating chips. And I was searching for something to munch on. So those need to go.
The key with this plan (as I'm told ) is to not feel guilty or beat myself up for any other choices made that day. Only focus on the success of that one goal. That will be the hard part-not feeling guilty about the other stuff. Like today's poptart. But I feel this sense of control with this. Like this is doable. And that has always been my problem--I don't believe I can do this. But maybe taking one small step at a time will make it more believable to me that I can succeed with weight loss and food.

Exercise Report
So today I planned to strength train. Well, I just didn't want to do my PNP workout. So I did a dvd instead. But I had to keep fast forwarding through the upper body parts since I can't do those. So that kinda sucked and it wasn't such a great workout. But I think I may do better with videos. I like following someone else and seeing what I'm supposed to be doing. With my pnp workout, I was never sure if I was doing the move right. I don't know what I want to do yet. I'll still think about it. They key, though, is to find something I like doing and will stick with. After that I did 15 mins on the elliptical. I wish I could have done more but I ran out of time due to the kids.

Daily Joy
Yikes! I'm not doing so well in this area lately. I consider my exercise, my CK time and sometimes cleaning as time for myself. But I'm really trying to do more. Time just slips away so quickly each day.

Daily Gratitude
I had some great time with the kids again today. I planned activities from a sensory integration therapy book. They're really regular games and activities that are just tweaked a little and also help me to know the kind of activities to focus on for Collin. They are just loving it and I'm enjoying the fun times with them.

Other
My husband is being crabby again. He is not feeling well and is probably catching what the kids had. But he's snapping at me again and starting the same old crap. I am almost positive he didn't get anything for Valentines Day. He said the flowers this time of year are such a rip off and he didn't want to spend the money on that. I told him that was fine, he could get me something else. What about the things I didn't get for Christmas? He said he wasn't sure what he was going to do. So I could be wrong but I'm pretty sure I'm getting nothing. I got him a gift and a nice card. I got him a Precious Moments figurine of a father and son on a John Deere tractor that says, "Like Father, Like Son." They love John Deere tractors and the boys love to get rides on ours around the yard.
Anyway, last night I told him I miss spending time with him and that it sucks that we never have time together. He said, "well, dear. That's the way it is when you have 2 kids." And that was it! I know many couples with 2 kids who make time for each other. I'm feeling unloved and unimportant again. And I hate that. I don't even want to give him his gift. My heart is no longer in it and I just don't want to play games.
We originally talked about doing something this weekend, maybe go out to dinner or to a movie. But his mom is now sick and she takes weeks to get over any kind of sickness at all. So we would have no babysitter. So he said that idea is out and we probably won't do anything for Valentines. He makes it so appealing to be married. I prayed about my bad attitude tonight because I know that I can contribute to the problem. So we'll see what happens in the morning.