Just got back from my run with my friend. I'm really pumped up and excited because I ran 3 miles for the first time in my life!! Honestly, I don't think I've ever made it that far. I've come really close, but I did it tonight, without any walking and I'm darn proud of myself!
It was so hard at first. It took a while to get into the groove and rhythm, but I finally did. I burned something like 592 cals!! We walked a mile before and after to cool down.
Well, now I'm quite exhausted. I caught up on reading some blogs, so now I'm going to eat me a snack and go to bed.
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Sorry I've been MIA. My family left yesterday morning and I've been trying to get things back to normal since. Then my husband was on the computer last night. And I fell asleep early.
Anyway, I have a few minutes before I head out the door and alot to say, so I'd better get to it!

Marriage update:
So first I want to let you know how I handled things after my husband was such a jerk on Saturday. I basically woke him up Sunday and demanded an apology. I asked him if he had anything to say to me. He was half asleep and looked at me weird. I then blistered his ears as I told him what I thought of his behavior. I asked him if this was how our marriage was going to be from now on. If we are now going to call each other names, swear at each other and be degrading to the other. Because if so, I'm not putting up with it. We have never been like that in the almost 9 years we've been married and that is not the kind of marriage I want now. He started to say, "Well I'm sorry, but . . ."
I stopped him right there and said, No But. I did not do anything to deserve this treatment. I don't care how mad you are, you don't talk to me this way. He sheepishly agreed and said he wouldn't say anything like that to me again. Then told me why he was so upset the day before that lead to all this. We talked about what could be done differently next time.
I don't know. That is good--especially in that I stood up for myself so firmly and that is very hard for me. I think he really crossed a line with me that just pushed me to my limit.
Now he is drinking during the week again which is violating our agreement. He did it last week and now this week again. I talked to the counselor about it last week and she suggested I try a different approach that isn't so direct. I tried it this morning.
I told him how much I appreciate it when he doesn't drink during the week, what a difference I feel it makes in our marriage and even with the kids. I didn't say anything about how he hasn't been doing that. He was mad and asked how it makes a difference and I told him he's more present with us and I'm not resentful. I told him that should count for alot.
I don't know what else to do at this point, other than pray.
Oh, and I'm done cooking for him. I'm making healthy things that I think everyone likes. He's on his own from now on.

Food update
Food has been terrible. Just eating lots of junk over the holiday and with my family. Lent finished on Sunday so I went a little crazy with chips, but haven't had any since Monday.
I talked about this with my counselor too and asked if I should continue with the no chip campaign. She said when I go to extremes with food, it leads to the other extreme of binging. So the key is finding balance in the middle. So set up some simple rules to follow.
So the plan is to bag all the chips in small snack bags. We came up with allowing myself 1 bag of my choice per week. Once I have that bag, no more. I feel really good about this plan and I think I may do this with pop and candy. That way I don't feel deprived but I won't go crazy either.
Lent taught me alot. I learned I can go without. I didn't really feel deprived because it was my conscious choice. Even at Collin's b-day party when we had chips all over and i was hungry, I didn't have any. I found something else to eat. I am really proud that I learned this about myself. Very valuable information.
I am trying not to focus on the weight, but it's hard. I feel fat and my clothes don't fit well. But I'm trying to focus on making good choices, following my rules that I set, and fueling my workouts. My training workouts have great focus and I love my bootcamp class.
I just need to get the food cleaned up without setting myself up for binges.

Well, I have more to say, but I need to get us out of the house so hopefully I can get caught up on your blogs and write more later. And for those who wished me a better Easter weekend after my husband was such a jerk, I did. It was wonderful with my sister and nephews. I enjoyed every second.