I had something very interesting, very , , , I don't know how to describe it, happen to me yesterday. And just to keep you in suspense, I don't have to time write about it all right now. It's a good thing, but I wondered if I should even blog about it because you may think I'm just totally nuts.

Well, on to a few other things first.
My food has been awful! It's been so discouraging. Just out of control on Monday and then yesterday. And I felt that wall of "I can't do this. I'll never have control over food, be able to lose weight, and be healthy." That is such a horrible feeling and it is so trapping. I felt panicked. I actually called my counselor and she talked to me for a few minutes. Said I was focusing on the negative and was stuck in that pattern. She said I need to distract myself from that negative cycle for a while then come back later with positive statements.
Well, I had the appointment (that has to do with the above news) and so that was definitely distracting enough as I was very emotional the rest of the day.
Later, I read something that really stuck with me from Linda Spangle (100 Days of Weight Loss). She said when you are stuck in "I can't" mode, add on "but I'll find a way." So that is what I'm doing today. I'm saying, I'll find a way to eat healthy, overcome this food addiciton. I'll find a way to be successful. I know I have so much strength and determination in me. It is only in this area that I really doubt myself. So I know I can do it with food and weight loss too. I just have to believe it.

Last night I went to run with my friend/running partner. She gave me the choice of running either faster or farther. I didn't want to do either as last week was the first time I had ever done 3 miles in my life. But I told her we could do faster and if it looked like we weren't going to make our time goal, we could go longer. Well, poor things has a bladder infection (or so she thinks). We were running outside in the cold and had to stop after a mile to go to the bathroom. We started running again and barely started mile 2 when she realized she couldn't run anymore. It was making her have to pee. (She'd be so embarassed if she knew I was writng this on the internet! But noone here knows her). Anyway, so we walked a few more laps before we went home.
So sucky run. I told my friend she'd better call the doctor today.

I need to go shower now as I really stink from spin class this morning. Then I need to clean before going to pick up Collin.
But I will try to get back on later this afternoon and write about this other appointment I had yesterday that just blew my mind!