NIKKI8's CalorieKing blog
Friday, Apr 18 2008 - Miss you all
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I miss reading everyone's blogs. So one of my goals today was to get caught up on some blogs. I finally did that, although I did not get to read the whole week's worth. Usually I just read today's. Hopefully I will find more time next week. I'm still not used to this new sleeping schedule of Collin's and it's throwing me off.
Anyway, I talked to Ashli on the phone yesterday. They are doing fine as they are in a townhouse temporarily, but they still really need prayers as they try to decide what to do with the property.
Well, I told her all about my marriage drama and what's been going on. She made a very interesting comment that has stuck in my head.
She said she has seen us in this same cycle over and over again. Chris' behvior is bad, I eventually stand up for myself, his behavior improves for a few days or a week. It gets bad again and it actually worsens each time this happens.
I had a similar thought before I talked with her, that his straightening up only lasts a short time and I'm going to stay on top of it this time.
But putting the label "cycle" on it made it so much more visual for me (I'm a very visual person) and helped me really see what's going on in our marriage.
Yes, I must stay on top of this (not nag, but continue to be assertive about my needs).
I haven't written out my list about his drinking. I have moments when I'm burying my head in the sand about it and thinking it's not that bad. But then he came home with his "weekend" beer supply and I was reminded that yes, it really is a problem and I need to address it soon.
But, oh how I dread doing that!
Okay, I need to talk about food. I have been focusing on making baby step type changes. And that has been good and somewhat successful.
I have accomplished the following:
1. limited my soda to 2-3 cans per week.
2. put all chips/pretzels in bagggies and only have 2-3 baggies per week (per my counselor's suggestion)
3. drinking more water, but some days have not been so good.
Today I had out of control sugar cravings!! It was so bad that I had 2 packages of my kids' fruit snacks and I didn't feel satisfied which usually means I'm thirsty.
So I need to get better about the water.
I need to plan my meals consistently!! This is key for me.
BLTs and sugar are what I need to target next and I probably need to lessen those soda servings but I'm going to take one thing at a time right now.
I must clean up my food though. It's not been very good lately. Ugh! Emotional eating as you can imagine with all that's been going on.
I have a 5k to run in the morning. My husband is working (that's rare) so I'm brining the kids with me and they are going to play with my running partner's kids and their dad will watch them. But I don't look forward to getting them up at 6am. They usually get up at 7:30.
But I will check in tomorrow night and let you know how the race went.
Anyway, I talked to Ashli on the phone yesterday. They are doing fine as they are in a townhouse temporarily, but they still really need prayers as they try to decide what to do with the property.
Well, I told her all about my marriage drama and what's been going on. She made a very interesting comment that has stuck in my head.
She said she has seen us in this same cycle over and over again. Chris' behvior is bad, I eventually stand up for myself, his behavior improves for a few days or a week. It gets bad again and it actually worsens each time this happens.
I had a similar thought before I talked with her, that his straightening up only lasts a short time and I'm going to stay on top of it this time.
But putting the label "cycle" on it made it so much more visual for me (I'm a very visual person) and helped me really see what's going on in our marriage.
Yes, I must stay on top of this (not nag, but continue to be assertive about my needs).
I haven't written out my list about his drinking. I have moments when I'm burying my head in the sand about it and thinking it's not that bad. But then he came home with his "weekend" beer supply and I was reminded that yes, it really is a problem and I need to address it soon.
But, oh how I dread doing that!
Okay, I need to talk about food. I have been focusing on making baby step type changes. And that has been good and somewhat successful.
I have accomplished the following:
1. limited my soda to 2-3 cans per week.
2. put all chips/pretzels in bagggies and only have 2-3 baggies per week (per my counselor's suggestion)
3. drinking more water, but some days have not been so good.
Today I had out of control sugar cravings!! It was so bad that I had 2 packages of my kids' fruit snacks and I didn't feel satisfied which usually means I'm thirsty.
So I need to get better about the water.
I need to plan my meals consistently!! This is key for me.
BLTs and sugar are what I need to target next and I probably need to lessen those soda servings but I'm going to take one thing at a time right now.
I must clean up my food though. It's not been very good lately. Ugh! Emotional eating as you can imagine with all that's been going on.
I have a 5k to run in the morning. My husband is working (that's rare) so I'm brining the kids with me and they are going to play with my running partner's kids and their dad will watch them. But I don't look forward to getting them up at 6am. They usually get up at 7:30.
But I will check in tomorrow night and let you know how the race went.
2 comments so far.
2.
a decade ago
I hope the 5k was fun!! And are you drinking regular soda or diet?
by SFARRANT
1.
a decade ago
You seem to be very aware of what you need to do food-wise. Planning meals is so key for me too. I think that is a good goal for you. Great job on the soda and the chips/pretzels - I love your counselor's suggestion. I'm sure there has been some emotional eating going on, but, remember, we're going for babysteps here - and you did that with your chips/pretzels/soda And you're here, forcing yourself to focus on it for a second and make some goals and realize some successes. I think this has been a successful week for you and, next week, you'll have another baby step that you have accomplished. We're in this for the long haul ( I know, something I need to remind myself, too)... so baby steps are good and necessary and drastic changes need not be. About your husband... Ashli is always saying such wise things. It's probably good that you ahve the label "cycle" on your marraige now becuase, now, you can be on the look out for that cycle - you can realize when you are in the part of the cycle where his behavior improves and, therefore, can be extra aware that you need to continue to be assertive of your needs in order to prevent the part of hte cycle where his behavior plummets again from happening. Wow, that was a run on sentence. Did you follow it? Anyway, I think your awareness and commitment to your life and to others is astonishing and impressive. You are really a fantastic, person, Nikki.
by LAURAGLAURA