I'm crabby today. I'm pms-ing and I'm really tired. So this might be short, but I have really been wanting to write.
It seemed like such a long day. I took Collin to speech and was 15 mins late for his 30 min session. Sigh. I have had a very hard time being on time for things lately.
I ran errands and then went to visit a friend who moved into a new house. I am not the greatest with directions and wandered around for awhile, which made me crabbier.
When I finally got there, we had a nice visit. Cleaned house after Carter went down for a nap.
And then I decided that we were going to the Y so I could take a yoga class.
This was a little spur of the moment. My husband had a meeting after work so I had some extra time. I wasn't sure what I was going to do for a workout since we moved running to tomorrow night.
I have been so stressed lately and with my bad mood, I decided some yoga might help.

I have only taken Yoga level 1. This was level 2 and oh, what a difference. It was more work than just stretching and deep breathing/relaxing that I used to do in level 1. But I was glad it was more like a real workout. I did thoroughly stretch muscles that really needed it and the ending relaxation was really good.

But I was crabby all over again once I picked up my kids. Not usual for me. I think it's hormones.
They were great about going to the gym and I'm really thankful for that, it's just that Collin is in a strage phase and it's wearing me out.
He is getting very controlling and bossy. Oh, the power struggles we are having lately. And he interupts me all the time--on the phone or when I'm talking to someone in person. I need to deal with it in a better way. I get on to him about interuppting, but then I answer his question or whatever he needs. I need to get on to him about interuppting and then ignore him (or give him a consequence).

Anyway, got off topic a little. Although I'm not sure this blog has a focus today. Just random thoughts.
Tomorrow I go to observe Collin's classroom at the preschool to get me ready for my new job next year. I know it will be a wake up call about what I'm in for. A classroom full of energetic 3 year olds! Oh my. I'm exhausted just thinking about it.

Food has been better lately. I have been planning my meals and not following them perfectly, but it's been definitly better.
I have also been listening to a weightloss podcast called InsideOut Weight Loss. It's been really good to listen to. Very motivating (and free). So far it has lined up perfectly with the things my counselor has been working with me on.

And now for the update that I've been dreading: my husband. He did ask me about the race the other day. So he gets credit for that.
But we had an incident with his drinking that could not be ignored. I don't have the energy to go into right now. But I did not want to approach him about this issue until I could plan better and I wanted to wait a little after throwing everything I did at him last week. It was alot.
Well, I gave him many reasons why his drinking is a problem for our family and how it affects the kids and our relationship (between the two of us). I did a great job on not letting him derail me.
But it did not go well. He was very, very angry with me about this. Very defensive. Had an argument and excuse for his behavior.
I didn't expect much more than this. I knew he would probably not react much better than this.
Not much more I can do. I did my part, now he has to do his. I have no control over him.

The thing is, I know he will think about what I've said. I've already seen him drinking less. He wouldn't admit that I am correct, but maybe he'll make some slow small changes (?). I really don't know and I'm letting it go now. I'll talk to my counselor about it at my next session and get her opinion. Other than that, I'm just done with that issue.

okay, I'm about to fall asleep. Long day tomorrow.