Lots to write about. We have a computer virus so my husband has been online a few nights trying to fix it, but no success yet. But I haven't been able to update my blog and I've been wanting to write about so many things.

First, I was doing really well with food. Had that major breakthrough in my thinking. Then I had trouble on Thursday. I felt overwhelmed by things and I had icecream in the afternoon. Not a huge disaster or anything. But I felt myself being pulled back into that cycle of negative thinking. The imprisoning thinking that says I can't do this, I can't ever be successful.
So I've been working really hard the last few days to change that.
Food hasn't been great, but I'm still doing the redo's and the successes in my journal each night. I'm saying affirmations and doing visualization exercises.
It amazes me how much my thinking is so limited and stuck. (Of course, I'm trying to change that!) I am trying to do the visualization exercises of picturing myself confident, at peace with food and able to easily turn away from a favorite food with neutral disinterest. That is harder to do that I thought it would be.
So I'm working on that.

Last night I went on a date with my husband. Can you believe that?! We went to a great restaurant that I called ahead of time to find out what would be safe for me to eat (gluten free). This place was so wonderful. They told me on the phone the chefs could alter many entrees to be gluten free. I ordered a chicken dish with a delicious sauce. They usually sautee it in flour but grilled it instead for me. I was so impressed with this place and the food was fantastic!
Oh, and things were good with my husband too. We actually talked!! We had talked the night before really well too. It was so good. We talked about spiritual things, our beliefs and where we stand right now.
Amazing as my relationship with God is so important to me, but I can never talk about it with Chris. I think he feels intimidated. So we had a good talk about those things. Then during dinner I told him one thing I really miss is watching movies with him on the couch and cuddling. I told him I want to do that once a week or every other week. And I asked him how we could make that happen. So we shall see how that goes. I feel closer to him than I have in a long time. And he's been pretty nice to me. I really think we need more time to connect.

I wanted to write down a few cute things Collin said to me recently. The other day he said, "You are the bestest mommy I neber (never) had." Awww! Then we were playing in the pool another day and he grabbed my arm and said, "I got you, You're never getting away." I said, so we're gonna be together forever?
He looked thoughtfully about this for a second and said, "No, I'm gonna be with daddy forever."
Well, I said, but I want to be with you forever too. "No, mommy, You're gonna be with Carter forever."
(So cute). Just to be silly and carry it a little farther, I said, but can't mommy be with you forever too?
He said so simply, "But, mommy, I have to go to school." Oh, okay then.

Hmm, I thought I had more to say. You know how it is. As soon as I sign off, I'll remember what else I want to write about.
Hopefully I will be able to keep up with my blog better this week. Although it's going to be a busy week. Lots going on.
Later!