I'm writing my final entry. My membership expires on April 17th. I've been logging on and checking blogs. Not commenting much, just enjoying keeping up with people and I'm going to miss that. But the good news is I'm on Facebook so you can find me there.
When I started with CK a little over 2 years ago, I was very overwhelmed with my life and focusing (uh, perhaps you could say obsessing) gave me an escape from it all. But it really backfired and I gained about 40 pounds since then. Eating all the stress and many other reasons. I just got in a bad cycle that I didn't know how to stop. Now some of that weight was "sickness weight" from when I was so skinny from being sick. But still, I count it.
I spent over two years hopeless about my weight, deeply believing that there was no hope for me. That's a big reason I stopped blogging. I felt like I was just recording my failures over and over. And it made me more depressed. And more focused on it. The more I focused on it, the worse it got.

But CK did alot of great things for me. I made great friends. (of course). But the major thing that stood out was how blogging here helped my marriage. I vented here when I couldn't anywhere else. And the feedback I got from friends here gave me strength to make changes.
Things are SO MUCH better now in my marriage. Not perfect of course, but God has been doing amazing things in both me and my husband. And I'm so thankful for my CK friends who were here for me through the worst of times.

I'm also happy to report that I've had a breakthrough with food and my weight. It started before Valentines day and I've lost 9 pounds. It feels so good to be able to breathe in my jeans again and not have to unbutton them when I sit down.
I credit this to God also for delivering me from the hopeless mindset I was in. I wish I could stay on CK longer and give you updates now and then; and keep up with all of you. But with the prices, no way. And I'm not using the calorie counter so it's not worth it.
But at least I can keep up with everyone on Facebook. So connect with me there, if you haven't already.
So thank you for your friendship and support. It's been invaluable.
Love you all!!