How often do I eat without even knowing? Well, probably never but there are times when I eat without thinking about it. I found myself browsing the cupboard for munchies last night. Shortly after dinner I was doing some stuff on my computer and just got up and went to the cupboard without a thought as to what I was looking for. I pulled a couple of things down and looked at the calorie content (at least I had the presence of mind to check it out) when it dawned on me that I was looking for a snack. Once I thought about it I realized that I was still full from dinner - shoot, I wasn't even hungry and the hinter-gatherer kicked in. I settled for a glass of water and went back to my computer.

I have often tried to figure out how I gained all this weight in the first place. The mystery of it all is beginning to crumble as I just become aware of what my body is telling me. I am learning to ignore my head when it says "eat something." When I get this message I need to remind myself to check in with the stomach before heading for the fridge. Staying aware is the key because once I wake up to what I am doing, I am back in control and able to assess whether or not it is hunger or the blind munchies. I define the blind munchies as the mindless eating because my mouth simply wants something crunchy.

I am in control of this. I can do this. I am strong. I am invincible. (well, maybe not invincible)