Back in the house! Space is just functional enough to live here. After a week, we have most of the old dust cleaned up, towel racks up in our one fully functional bathroom, and a modest "kitchen" space carved out of the to-become-the-real-dining-area. Subflooring in the kitchen/dining area, electrical, and plumbing are done there, too. Master bedroom has its floor almost completed, maybe we can "move in" to that room next week some time (still to do, closet doors, some kind of window covering so we're not entertainment for our back-yard neighbors, baseboards, and overhead lighting choices). Two other bathrooms are just raw spaces. All the things I need for living are crammed into my "office" - a room that received no remodeling. All the things that can't be used immediately for kitchen are crammed into the room that will become my husband's office, plus I have a small futon pallette set up there to sleep upon. Hubby has been camped out in the living room as his usable office space. The remaining room, being remodeled with its own bathroom, is covered in plastic and has everything that used to be in hubby's office. Geesh, this will make no sense to anyone who hasn't seen it!

Basically, at this point, the master bedroom is key. Once that's done, we can shift stuff into that room and finish up the other rooms.

Living in a space and trying to remodel is difficult. You have to find somewhere to PUT everything!

Now to the real point of Calorie King. I'm not following program. My daily efforts are: (a) some movement - walking and/or arthritis exercises, this weekend I hope to clean up and ride the bike; (b) pack lunch and snacks appropriate for work days; (c) make healthful choices for dinner. Where I'm falling down: snacking on anything I want, at whatever time I want.

Weight is up. Not miserably, uncomfortably up, but warning up.

Problem: I feel absolutely out of control in every aspect of my life. And the routines that usually help to give me some sense of well-being (then control) are not working. I am praying daily. Writing daily (hard copy, not here). Still, its not helping.

Last night I realized this is probably serious. Today, I'm going to look up what counseling benefits I have and seek outside help.

Well now, that's some kind of control, isn't it? Maybe it will be a a better step toward's healing. Because right now, if I'm honest, my heart is like this: or maybe like this:

Here is some of what my self-talk to keep on keeping on:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

From Proverbs 3.

Okay. Read to drink my water and look at the house and figure out how to enjoy today!