Just finished a call to baby sister, in early to work.

I'm doing okay. Work at the office is in a sweet spot of sorts. Able to be productive, some rewarding things, not beating myself up over what I can't do, plans for future to improve some things that have been frustrating. Good enough for a job.

Being active - Went to the gym 2x this week (meeting self-imposed goal), rode bike a couple times, did an at-home exercise DVD and some outside walking.

Reaching out to friends for support.

Trying not to get sucked in to Hubby's negativity or blame. We got to this place in our marriage together and I don't feel like pointing fingers is going to get us out safely.

Anger is present: we each have our share of "how could you...?" and bewilderment. And I keep trying to bring it back to the fact that our marriage has not been a healthy relationship for either of us.

Ah, but the crux of calorie king: my calories! I haven't tracked food in either location (CK or BodyBugg), I'm still without a kitchen, and I'm eating way too much "comfort food" that doesn't really comfort.

Will continue to try to influence myself to choose healthy what goes in my body. But the focus has got to be surviving this time so that I can thrive later.

Posted today just in case there's someone out there following me and wondering how I'm doing.

Appreciated today: Oak trees on my walk to the bus stop. The first oak tree I ever "knew" was near the light house under the George Washington bridge on the north west side of Manhattan. I think it was a nursery school field trip, and I remember feeling awe and wonder that the acorn I held in my hand could grow into the oak tree that towered over my head.

Blessings to y'all. -Otter