OTTER's Oct 2009 CalorieKing Blog
One More Vacation Day, Yay!
Monday, October 26th 2009
I took two days off from work this week. Today and tomorrow. Originally reserved the days thinking they'd be helpful in getting me moved in and then I could be all swift and file paperwork. But my needs are different than I'd imagined they might be, and I'm moving at a pace that unfolds daily - instead of my usual style. [Usual: plan, make lists, follow the lists, adjust daily or weekly as the case may be.]Great about today: I'm making my space my own. More boxes are empty, I'm makin...
Plateaus
Friday, October 23rd 2009
I'm understanding it is going to take some time to move from each phase as the divorce process proceeds. Right now I'm in a difficult phase. I hope this is the worst phase - so I'm setting forth a happiness grid. Right now at the lowest phase, each phase will take some time, but perhaps by summer I can be pretty high on my scale.Anyway, it seemed something I could use to help envision some brighter days
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Better day...
Thursday, October 22nd 2009
Had a divorce recovery group last night - my first. Wow, so many people in so much pain. I guess I'm glad for my own journey, and that I don't have someone else's journey to tread.Remembering that doing the right thing usually makes me feel better, even in the worst of circumstances.
Remembering that I can make choices in any circumstance - no matter how bad.
I'm clumsy, forgetful, inarticulate - in comparison to my "usual" me. But I am so glad for the opportunity to...
My life is a roller coaster...
Wednesday, October 21st 2009
I think my new place has bugs. At least I've been getting bitten since Sunday. Had pest control come out today. But they find no visible evidence - tho' we suspect bed bugs. I'm on bug watch for a week. Keeping track of when & notice bites and under what circumstances. Then Pest Control will come back if we have something more conclusive.<Sigh> It's just stuff, right? It's a beautiful time of year, I'm gainfully employed, I'm slowly beginning to eat properly. This is just...
My G*d, my G*d, how you have blessed me!...
Tuesday, October 20th 2009
I cannot believe how much love, support, understanding, great suggestions, and friendship is flooding my way. I feel fat and stupid and awkward after this crazy year. I know I'm doing the best I can, and all of the worst of this stuff will pass. But I still feel dreadful. And oddly hopefulBut what is reflected back through friendships and family: I'm smart, I'm capable, I'm beautiful, I'm resilient, I'm strong, I'll grow, I'll manage.
So here's to the wonder and grace brought ...