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Path of Grief...
Wednesday, January 14th 2009
This morning I wrote: "I wept before because middle sister had died. I weep now because I know she is lost to me." I think I'm understanding / accepting / grieving that there will be no new connections or sharing with middle sister in this earthly life. Some tell me there will, but those will be from my side only. There are times I feel inconsolable about this loss, it is humongous and incomprehensible. Did we humans accept and understand death in different ways when death was mo...Embrace the Chaos!
Monday, January 12th 2009
Taking a quick break - instead of walking or eating my apple, I'll update my blog.WORK: All my resistance and anger and unhappiness evaporated with the warm welcome I have received on returning to work. So I feel confused. I love the work I do. I just do not understand the communication styles of those closest to me, and (even after 11 years) have not seemed to be able to adjust to those styles. My resolution: take care of business here, under this roof. Seek the assistance of a l...
Home again - almost!
Sunday, January 4th 2009
Wow, close to a week since I last posted.In that time, saw my hubby fly home before me; celebrated new year with baby sister, & brother-in-law; got a hearing aid for my tricky left ear; flew home; found the remodeling is still in process; and have now spent a second night in a hotel with hubby - we're not at home.
Did get to do a foray home yesterday. Can tell the house will be beautiful after the remodel; can also tell it will be a long while before I can really live there. Hubb...
Weigh-in on new scale today...
Monday, December 29th 2008
New scale says I weigh 5 pounds more than I did last time I weighed in. Which I think is not bad (see "Werepig" entry from yesterday). Of course, I won't know my real weight until I'm home and do my nude weigh-in.Still, I think I can achieve goal weight in reasonable time, and I'm looking forward to maintenance. Once I've been at goal weight for a year, I'll have my wedding bands re-sized. Right now I wear them on a chain around my neck (near my heart).
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Gonn...
Eating like a Werepig (related to werewolf)...
Sunday, December 28th 2008
Werepigs eat everything that doesn't run away. And like Werewolfs, their behavior hurts the ones they love the most :-/Hurts me because I don't feel my best, don't want to interract with my world, start to be grumpy.
Hurts the ones around me because I get so crabby.
I'm in my last 5 or 6 days away from home. The house is filled with "sugar bombs" left over from the holiday and well-meaning friends. Finding it hard to say no, not sure if I have the option to toss the ...