I did it!!!

I broke through the plateau!!!

I had to work really hard this past week changing my exercise routine, eating fewer calories, eating better foods, and focusing my energy and motivation.

I actually found adding more fat to my diet helped this week. Being vegan I am alway on the lower side with regard to recommended daily intake with fat and I found having a bit of cashew butter, for example, helped me feel fuller longer.

I can't tell you how anxious I am to get into the 180s. I've been in the 190s over a month now and I am itching to be in the 180s... also because I have NEVER been in the 180s in my entire adult life. I'm curious to see what I will look and feel like!

I see a therapist (the mind kind) once in a while... I guess more out of habit these days. I originally started seeing her a few years ago after my mother had a heart attack and I was going through a rough time dealing with it. I've still kept going (much less frequently) because I do find that it helps to have someone to bounce things off of.

She's been really great at helping me overcome mental barriers with my weight.

We were talking last night about so many GOOD things going on in my life which was really nice. Nothing like going to a therapist and spending the whole time talking about how happy you are!

We started talking about how I think about myself, my mental image of myself... what a tricky one! Even though I get visual affirmation of myself in the mirror and in photos... I am still having a hard time SEEING myself at the weight I am at. It will be a process that will take a while I am sure and it's a nice personal challenge to have to not only lose weight, but learn to love the woman I am changing into.



Funny things I notice about myself these days... I can feel my spine bones. I can feel my ribs. I now have that little "keyhole" between my legs which I have never had before. I am acquiring a hollow in my armpits. I can fully cross my legs without my top leg popping up. I can wear the nice little bracelets people have bought for me in the past which my wrist was always too big for. Can't wear my wedding or engagement rings anymore because they fall off my finger.

I am just so interested to see what I am going to look like 10, 20, 30 lbs from now! I can't even imagine goal weight 150 (only 42 lbs to go!)