PLATEOFSTARS's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Apr 6 2010 - Smaller
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I'm getting used to being smaller. Getting used to the idea that I am a "medium" - getting used to the idea that I can go into normal size clothing stores (though I often don't, I still have this fear I'll be too fat for the clothes).
I went to the Calvin Klein store at an outlet mall in Orlando and bought myself an office blouse in Medium. That was a big step.
Sometimes pictures really help to see the change. Sometimes they can work against you though because I often focus on the areas that still need work.
I feel a bit of a lull right now in the motivation department. I think I'm going to take a one-week breather of not "having to" be at my best motivation-wise and get back into gear next week in anticipation of running my third mid-length challenge here on CK.
I think this might be my last challenge, at least for a while. My life is quite busy and as I get closer to goal and the weight is getting harder and harder to lose - I am finding it more difficult to BE a motivator. I think I might need to join someone else's challenge after this to not have to feel that much (internal more than anything) pressure to be "on" motivation-wise.
It will be kind of nice to join the "Last 10 pounds" group!
I hate to say it but I'm getting kind of tired of losing weight. Not that I want to gain by any means... but just tired of constantly being vigilant, constantly not being a consistent size, constantly not having clothes that fit, constantly not knowing what I'm going to look like a month from now (though that is also exciting too).
Ok, so this entry is a bit of an admission that I'm running short on steam. I'm fairly certain I'll be opening a COWA in the next few days though. I just need to do some personal pep talking.
I won't be giving up on my goal anytime soon.
I went to the Calvin Klein store at an outlet mall in Orlando and bought myself an office blouse in Medium. That was a big step.
Sometimes pictures really help to see the change. Sometimes they can work against you though because I often focus on the areas that still need work.
I feel a bit of a lull right now in the motivation department. I think I'm going to take a one-week breather of not "having to" be at my best motivation-wise and get back into gear next week in anticipation of running my third mid-length challenge here on CK.
I think this might be my last challenge, at least for a while. My life is quite busy and as I get closer to goal and the weight is getting harder and harder to lose - I am finding it more difficult to BE a motivator. I think I might need to join someone else's challenge after this to not have to feel that much (internal more than anything) pressure to be "on" motivation-wise.
It will be kind of nice to join the "Last 10 pounds" group!
I hate to say it but I'm getting kind of tired of losing weight. Not that I want to gain by any means... but just tired of constantly being vigilant, constantly not being a consistent size, constantly not having clothes that fit, constantly not knowing what I'm going to look like a month from now (though that is also exciting too).
Ok, so this entry is a bit of an admission that I'm running short on steam. I'm fairly certain I'll be opening a COWA in the next few days though. I just need to do some personal pep talking.
I won't be giving up on my goal anytime soon.
8 comments so far.
8.
a decade ago
Can Of Whoop A$$...COWA! I like it!! Thanks for enlightening me on that. I feel smarter already and my day wasn't a total loss.
:thumbu2:
by TNYBUBBLZ
7.
a decade ago
Yeah, I think mixing it up will be good for you. I really can't stress enough that I understand what you are feeling. Mixing it up, and putting my focus on this whole journey in a new light really has shaken me out of the feelings of being tired. You just have to think of a new goal. And it may be a while before you can come up with that. It was for me.
I essentially went into maintenance for about 3 weeks or so. I was logging, but not super faithfully. I was kind of losing and gaining the same little bit of weight. But I think this little rest really did help. If you need a break, my vote is maintain for just a week or two. It helped me find some clarity.
by AUBRIEANNIE
6.
a decade ago
Maybe we need to start a "Last 20" thread...
You have done a terrific job.
by LILYHIKER
5.
a decade ago
you have made some amazing progress. what a lovely photo of you.
:D You'll find your rhythm again!
it's sometimes a little hard to stay motivated as the weight loss slows near goal. i think taking a breather for a while is sometimes a good idea. though
by NEIMANMARXIST
4.
a decade ago
That's a good point Aubrie... I need to focus on a new goal... I think I started to do that before my Orlando trip. More weight training and more running. Maybe I need to join some sort of class - Bellydancing has been on my list for a while... must bump that up. My 10K running clinic ends in May. I'll find a bellydancing class to start after that I think!
:teeth3:
And Roxanne, it's kind of neat to see how far I've come along... I inspire myself sometimes!
by PLATEOFSTARS
3.
a decade ago
HAHAHA... "Can Of Whoop As$"
by PLATEOFSTARS
2.
a decade ago
You inspire us and motivate us just by your sucesses! It can be tough to keep that motivation going but you have come so very far and worked so hard so you have earned a little bit of "freedom" from worry for a while. It is good to know that your not going to be giving up on your goal anytime soon.
:angel4: Good news there!
Okay...I have been trying to figure out what a COWA is for a while now...please save me from my own stupidity on this. LOL.
by TNYBUBBLZ
1.
a decade ago
I hear you about being frustrated about not being a consistent size. Yes, your clothes getting too be is a good problem to have, I understand that. BUT, it is hard when you have to buy things just so you don't look frumpy. The other night, I went through my closet again, and got rid of 2 garbage bags of clothes. It was bittersweet. In those bags were some of my favorite sun dresses that haven't fit in YEARS, but as fate would have it, I got too small for them sometime during winter!
I too am still amazed when I fit into mediums, and lower sizes. Last time I went shopping, I reached for a 14 and my mom said "Yeah, don't you dare. That's not your size anymore!" But part of me still feels like it is. It is very hard to get used to.
I'm also looking forward to joining the last 10lbs challenge. Though I've got a bit more to go than you until I get there. I was feeling much like you are for a while. But now that I'm trying this clean eating, it has given me something new to focus on and reupped the motivation. It's odd how getting closer to goal can become demotivating, when everything seems like it should up the motivation.
You will find your COWA soon enough. Just take a breath, and get ready for your final push!
by AUBRIEANNIE