PLATEOFSTARS's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Apr 13 2010
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A couple of thoughts today.
First of all... WOW!
I have been making sure to get to the gym 3 times a week for weight training and, wow! can I ever see the difference. My arms, back, shoulders, and chest are getting really toned!
I never ever thought I would have nice armpits but I have this amazing hollow in them now that I've been really working the upper body. SO proud of myself!
Second - I sometimes can't believe I'm still shrinking. Maybe because the scale hasn't been moving as quickly but I can still notice in my pants. Today I am wearing a pair of 10s I bought a few weeks ago. They were tight the last time I wore them and today they fit just perfectly, if not slightly loose. My body is still changing even if I'm not noticing!
And third - as I get smaller I've been meditating on the idea of being "less here." Now that I am smaller, am I less present? Now keep in mind I only posing this as a philisophical thought not necessarily an issue.
I just wonder - compared to the woman I was before - there is physically less of her here in the world now, does that mean I am less here?
First of all... WOW!
I have been making sure to get to the gym 3 times a week for weight training and, wow! can I ever see the difference. My arms, back, shoulders, and chest are getting really toned!
I never ever thought I would have nice armpits but I have this amazing hollow in them now that I've been really working the upper body. SO proud of myself!
Second - I sometimes can't believe I'm still shrinking. Maybe because the scale hasn't been moving as quickly but I can still notice in my pants. Today I am wearing a pair of 10s I bought a few weeks ago. They were tight the last time I wore them and today they fit just perfectly, if not slightly loose. My body is still changing even if I'm not noticing!
And third - as I get smaller I've been meditating on the idea of being "less here." Now that I am smaller, am I less present? Now keep in mind I only posing this as a philisophical thought not necessarily an issue.
I just wonder - compared to the woman I was before - there is physically less of her here in the world now, does that mean I am less here?
3 comments so far.
3.
a decade ago
Indeed V, very nicely stated.
I think you will find that balance, it just might take a little bit of time to really come into who your ultimately meant to be. Give it time girl.
by TNYBUBBLZ
2.
a decade ago
Very very nicely said V. Sometimes I feel like I need to make up for there being less of me by making my personality bigger... but then I worry about becoming obnoxious! :-)
by PLATEOFSTARS
1.
a decade ago
Hmm, less here. Depression is making me feel 'less here' as well. If Im depressed and lose weight can I disappear altogether? I find my 'personal space' has not decreased with my weight.
On the other hand, those with muscular armpits (you know what I mean) are you now 'more' than you were before? More solid? Stronger... Faster... (um, sorry mixed you up with the bionic woman) You take up less space externally, but that does anything but diminish you. You have more control over your body, your food, and your clothing choices. You shine like a new penny with your buff and tanned new bod. Your sense of self, of pride, of glowing physical health makes you more. Can you then be both 'more' and 'less'? I think its possible to be the same person and still be a different one, Approximately and Exactly.
by VEELACAILLE