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Monday, Apr 19 2010 - Burning topics
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Today's blog is going to hit some hard topics for me and is probably going to be quite lengthy.
First on the block is a little conversation about Bad logging! I've been letting myself slide with regard to my diligence with logging. This is because I will excuse away calories, before they are ever recorded, because I know I'm burning a lot of calories through exercise. My "formula" for weight loss, which has worked amazingly well up until now, has been this:
Eat net 1250 per day, get an extra 200 calories through exercise but no more than 200.
Well, since my second little conversation is related, I'll throw it in now... the scale isn't budging! I am quite sure it's because of my bad logging and I'm thinking I need to revise my formula. Clearly my body is demanding more fuel now that I am working out so much but on the other hand, I need fewer calories to maintain my weight. I'm really not sure what to do to be honest.
Third up is guilt. I felt SO GUILTY yesterday after having burned more than 1000 calories through running and playing squash for having eaten a full plate of thai food (I normally skip the rice). I couldn't get over how guilty I felt and the first reaction I had was "I have to go work out to burn off those calories." Clearly I need to sit down and have a sort-it-out with this guilt voice and see about convincing it that once in a while, after a big calorie burn, that it is OK to have a bigger meal.
I guess it goes back to my first topic that I'm not logging well. I may need to lower my net but allow a bigger eat back. OR, if I am consistently exercising and burning more than 300 per session, increase my daily intake but don't include exercise calories as a reward. Not sure I like the second option.
Fourth up is the idea of "being fit. Anyone who has visited my blog in the last few months would know that this has been a common topic for me. Wrapping my brain around defining myself as "fit" or "athletic," but that is indeed what I am becoming. I have a huge amount of energey these days and I am now a person who craves exercise and activity.
Related is my sixth topic which is dealing with jealous "snipey" comments. I am taking part in a run clinic which is training us for a 10K race. Sunday was our first time running 10K together and my first time ever running 10K as a distance. This was a HUGE occassion for me... but I felt like my coach tried to under cut me.
After the run she made a comment about how "everyone" had been cursing me as I passed them in the last 2K (I was ahead of the group) and sped up on my way to finish and that "everyone" had been saying it wasn't fair that this was my first 10K.
I didn't know what to say!!! Honestly!!! Am I supposed to feel bad that I am in good shape and was able to finish faster than they were??? Isn't a coach supposed to pat me on the back and congratulate me... not tell me that she'd been cursing me??? (even if she was trying to say it as a joke, it really wasn't).
Then to make it worse, as I was leaving I had my squash raquet in my hand and she exclaimed "and now you're going to play squash?!!!" - she said it as if I was going to play squash only to rub it in her face or something. Definitely left a bad taste in my mouth.
And my last topic is about having emptied my closets. Last night I gathered 4 garbage bags of clothing that I intend to take to charity. I just couldn't believe I'm saying goodbye to all those clothes. There have got to be more than a couple thousand dollars worth of clothes in those bags (mostly because there are some expensive winter jackets I decided to get rid of).
It really makes me want to appeal to my friends and family to keep me accountable to keeping the weight off. It's really scary to think about one day gaining back the weight and having to buy all those clothes again.
Phew... so I got through my burning topics.
I may elaborate on any one of them over the week.
First on the block is a little conversation about Bad logging! I've been letting myself slide with regard to my diligence with logging. This is because I will excuse away calories, before they are ever recorded, because I know I'm burning a lot of calories through exercise. My "formula" for weight loss, which has worked amazingly well up until now, has been this:
Eat net 1250 per day, get an extra 200 calories through exercise but no more than 200.
Well, since my second little conversation is related, I'll throw it in now... the scale isn't budging! I am quite sure it's because of my bad logging and I'm thinking I need to revise my formula. Clearly my body is demanding more fuel now that I am working out so much but on the other hand, I need fewer calories to maintain my weight. I'm really not sure what to do to be honest.
Third up is guilt. I felt SO GUILTY yesterday after having burned more than 1000 calories through running and playing squash for having eaten a full plate of thai food (I normally skip the rice). I couldn't get over how guilty I felt and the first reaction I had was "I have to go work out to burn off those calories." Clearly I need to sit down and have a sort-it-out with this guilt voice and see about convincing it that once in a while, after a big calorie burn, that it is OK to have a bigger meal.
I guess it goes back to my first topic that I'm not logging well. I may need to lower my net but allow a bigger eat back. OR, if I am consistently exercising and burning more than 300 per session, increase my daily intake but don't include exercise calories as a reward. Not sure I like the second option.
Fourth up is the idea of "being fit. Anyone who has visited my blog in the last few months would know that this has been a common topic for me. Wrapping my brain around defining myself as "fit" or "athletic," but that is indeed what I am becoming. I have a huge amount of energey these days and I am now a person who craves exercise and activity.
Related is my sixth topic which is dealing with jealous "snipey" comments. I am taking part in a run clinic which is training us for a 10K race. Sunday was our first time running 10K together and my first time ever running 10K as a distance. This was a HUGE occassion for me... but I felt like my coach tried to under cut me.
After the run she made a comment about how "everyone" had been cursing me as I passed them in the last 2K (I was ahead of the group) and sped up on my way to finish and that "everyone" had been saying it wasn't fair that this was my first 10K.
I didn't know what to say!!! Honestly!!! Am I supposed to feel bad that I am in good shape and was able to finish faster than they were??? Isn't a coach supposed to pat me on the back and congratulate me... not tell me that she'd been cursing me??? (even if she was trying to say it as a joke, it really wasn't).
Then to make it worse, as I was leaving I had my squash raquet in my hand and she exclaimed "and now you're going to play squash?!!!" - she said it as if I was going to play squash only to rub it in her face or something. Definitely left a bad taste in my mouth.
And my last topic is about having emptied my closets. Last night I gathered 4 garbage bags of clothing that I intend to take to charity. I just couldn't believe I'm saying goodbye to all those clothes. There have got to be more than a couple thousand dollars worth of clothes in those bags (mostly because there are some expensive winter jackets I decided to get rid of).
It really makes me want to appeal to my friends and family to keep me accountable to keeping the weight off. It's really scary to think about one day gaining back the weight and having to buy all those clothes again.
Phew... so I got through my burning topics.
I may elaborate on any one of them over the week.
7 comments so far.
7.
a decade ago
Wow, I cant believe that your running coach actually said those things to you, that is so unacceptable for a "coach". They are supposed to be supportive not make you feel bad for accomplishing something great like you did! Dont let her get to you, I would find a new running group if I were you, one that is more supportive of their members and wants them to do well. Your amazing and you have done and continue to do amazing things, you have completely transformed yourself and there are always going to be people out there that have the Green Eyed Monster looking out at you that try to tear you down or belittle your accomplishments, dont let them get to you.
I think I need to go back to the basics too, like Veelacaille said, figure out what your body needs to make it work like a well oiled machine. You have a new car (so to speak) maybe it runs on premium gas now as opposed to regular unleaded. You'll figure out the magic combination soon enough. WE are all routing for you!
by TNYBUBBLZ
6.
a decade ago
sorry to hear about the snipey comments. I think that everyone that has a successful weight loss journey is bound to get that from jealous detractors from time to time. even friends can start to resent your success as the old you falls away. it doesn't mean anything about the way they feel about you; it has to do with the way they feel about themselves when they witness the success of a person that has always been a particular way in their life (like an eating budd you won't eat with anymore or something.) don't take it personally; this is a reflection of their feelings about themselves not about you.
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i'm with you on the honest logging. me too
by NEIMANMARXIST
5.
a decade ago
Nicole, you 'found' this formula thru trial and error, right? But that was with your ''other'' body. Back to basics then. Try for a week to eat to net, eat back most of your calories, say 75% of what you think you burned during the day. Then start adjusting. Maybe your body just needs a higher net, 'specially if your running and squashing. Its a new body. This one didnt come with a manual any more than the old one did. What worked for the old one may not work for the new. Reformulate!
by VEELACAILLE
4.
a decade ago
Yep jealousy is a very human, and nasty trait. It's hard for some folks to be happy for others success, especially when they aren't doing well themselves, or are deluding themselves. Ah well. Just continue to be proud of Your accomplishments. And I would find a different coach!
by CALYOPI123
3.
a decade ago
Wow, your coach sounds like a b*otch! Ignore her, and those people complaining about you speeding up during the last 2K. That's how it's done, chica! I always like to turn on the heat when I'm close to the finish, give it all that I've got there.
I totally understand where you are with logging. I haven't been so great lately either, hence my goal of 90% green checks for the challenge. And I too know your confusion about what the right forumla is for eating back calories. Since my burns are going to get pretty big durning marathon training, I know I will have to start eating more of the calories back, and that makes me a bit uncomfortable. I don't have an answer, but just wanted to say you aren't alone in that struggle.
Getting rid of old clothes has proven really really hard for me. BUT, I just talked to a friend who's mom wears the size I need to purge, so hopefully I can give them to her. Part of it is like I want to make sure they have a good home or something! hahah.
by AUBRIEANNIE
2.
a decade ago
That doesn't sound like a supportive coach. You would think she would be so proud of you for doing so well with your first 10K. I am very proud of you and you played squash in the same day! You are in amazing shape and if you can do it don't let them bring you down! WTG and good for you!!!
by MRSDSB
1.
a decade ago
Your coach doesn't sound very supportive. Clearly you're doing things to help improve your running performance. Is she upset you actually did what she is supposed to be teaching you to do? Some people just have a natural gift of running too. Some jealousy is definitely there!
I know what you mean about the clothes. It is hard to get rid of it all knowing the money spent. But when I tallied it up and compared it to how much I spent on eating out, the cost actually pales in comparison. I'd rather spend the $ on new clothes!
Hope you have a good day today.
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI