I've been looking over some old pictures from high school and early adult. I only remember being overweight, but looking over the pics I don't look that overweight. I saw a high school pic that I hadn't seen in over 20 years and I look down right skinny. Funny how self image is skewed by self hate during those times.

Yesterday was such a strange day. I started out by going an extra 5 minutes on the treadmill (for a total of 30 minutes) with 8 of those running. I'm trying to change up my walking speed so that I can maintain a longer running length. I was going 3.0 at walking and then 3.5 on running but never really catching my breath. I changed it to 2.5 walking for 3 minutes then 3.5 running for two minutes. I was able to go longer and add an extra cycle of running. I'm going to try that again tonight and see if I can do a repeat.

The food portion of my day was pretty wonkedified. At some point I decided to not eat anything all day so that I can make a mess of a meal for dinner. It was breakfast for dinner last night and I thought for sure I was going to go over my count. I was almost afraid to log it today. I did and came out with 21 calories to spare. I spent the entire night thinking I had gone over and it was another failure. I felt bad after I ate and had I logged last night I would have actually been right on target and maybe enjoyed myself a little more. Oh well lesson learned.

I'm not going to be logging my physical activity for a while. I try to get on the treadmill everyday and with the logging it was keeping my calorie count down below target (1580) and I was trying force feed myself just to get that green check. I need to remember that if I'm not hungry I don't have to eat no matter what my calorie count is. The pressure from the physical activity log was just a tad too much and I'm getting more green checks!