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Thursday, Feb 25 2010 - Some days...
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The picture says everything.
Now that that is out of the way
Oh wait its not.
I am in a piss foul mood right now.
Serious.
Super Serious.
Here are a few of the reasons why that Ive been able to pin point (this of course if more for my benefit than anyone that might lay eyes on this as Im sure not too many people want to read a fat girls antics when shes in a foul mood)
* Reason number one: I made a bad choice in food last night. Not bad bad bad but definitely bad. I went to Buca Di Beppo in Seattle. I should have opted to go somewhere else with healthier options but that is neither here nor there. I talked myself into going and talked myself into eating. I didnt gorge myself to the point of being sick but I did eat past the point that I should have stopped. It was not a planned meal so I didnt plan accordingly with my food through out the day. Lesson learned. No more impromptu dinners out without first planning.
* Reason Number two: Yesterday I got on the scale and it read 240. Today is read 242. Im not complaining. Its still a -2.0 loss since my last weigh in on Saturday. I was just so happy to see that number and then to see such an increase in less than 24 hours. I blame reason #1.
* Reason Number three: I want some effing ice-cream. I also want a large pepperoni pizza, a cheeseburger from Carls Jr and just about anything else I can shove into my pie hole. Again, I blame reason #1
* Reason Number four: Someone brought donuts into work today. Chocolate, Maple, Sprinkles and jelly-filled. I want to choke them. I want to take the donuts and scream Do you hate me?. I seriously think sweets of any kind should be banned from our work. We sit all day and process calls. No moving. No physical activity. Most of us are overweight. Out of kind gestures we have donuts, oreos, doritos, m&ms, and a drawer full of chocolate. We do have healthy options (fruit and veggie) but they run out so quick that I resort to bringing my own food. As a whole I just wish we could see how bad those sweets are when were sitting around for hours at a time.
* Reason Number Five: Whoa is that a Freudian slip that my reason number 5 is because of the c25k week number 5 is looming on the horizon. Im scared. Im not going to lie. Im pretty freaked out by what c25k thinks Im supposed to be doing next week. 8 minutes? Twice and then the final day 20 minutes???? WTH? Its almost incomprehensible and my brain is already trying to back track its way out of even trying. I barely have the five minutes down and already you want me to increase it by 15 minutes!!!
* Reason Number 6: My shins hurt. Ive been reading about it and trying to figure out what to do with them (ice, rest, ibuprophen) but the fact remains, they hurt and it is disappointing me.
/end reasons.
The truth of the matter is today Im frustrated with being fat. I know this may not be the way I feel tomorrow as Im walking the dogs and taking a break from running. Ill probably feel pretty good while Im walking up the stairs at my college job thinking about how I havent taken an elevator in over 2 months. Ill probably feel on top of everything as Im eating my big tupperware full of fruits and veggies while working but I cant ignore my frustrations.
Frustrations are a great way to bust through a particularly hard moment in ones life. Im frustrated at being fat and the food choices I made last night so I will take that frustration and push forward. Tomorrow I will walk my dogs a little farther (theyd like it if I walked them for 48 hours straight so no complaint will come from them). On Saturday Im going to be making a nice cold thai salad that a friend from CalorieKing posted that is low in calories but high in taste. Sunday I will take a deep breath and give it all Ive got bright and early on the waterfront while I attempt to run for 8 minutes!
Ive been finding solace in reading other blogs and seeing both success stories and stories that are not so successful. They all give me the wisdom I need to push past this frustration. Thanks to everyone out there for doing what youre doing.
What are your frustrations?
Now that that is out of the way
Oh wait its not.
I am in a piss foul mood right now.
Serious.
Super Serious.
Here are a few of the reasons why that Ive been able to pin point (this of course if more for my benefit than anyone that might lay eyes on this as Im sure not too many people want to read a fat girls antics when shes in a foul mood)
* Reason number one: I made a bad choice in food last night. Not bad bad bad but definitely bad. I went to Buca Di Beppo in Seattle. I should have opted to go somewhere else with healthier options but that is neither here nor there. I talked myself into going and talked myself into eating. I didnt gorge myself to the point of being sick but I did eat past the point that I should have stopped. It was not a planned meal so I didnt plan accordingly with my food through out the day. Lesson learned. No more impromptu dinners out without first planning.
* Reason Number two: Yesterday I got on the scale and it read 240. Today is read 242. Im not complaining. Its still a -2.0 loss since my last weigh in on Saturday. I was just so happy to see that number and then to see such an increase in less than 24 hours. I blame reason #1.
* Reason Number three: I want some effing ice-cream. I also want a large pepperoni pizza, a cheeseburger from Carls Jr and just about anything else I can shove into my pie hole. Again, I blame reason #1
* Reason Number four: Someone brought donuts into work today. Chocolate, Maple, Sprinkles and jelly-filled. I want to choke them. I want to take the donuts and scream Do you hate me?. I seriously think sweets of any kind should be banned from our work. We sit all day and process calls. No moving. No physical activity. Most of us are overweight. Out of kind gestures we have donuts, oreos, doritos, m&ms, and a drawer full of chocolate. We do have healthy options (fruit and veggie) but they run out so quick that I resort to bringing my own food. As a whole I just wish we could see how bad those sweets are when were sitting around for hours at a time.
* Reason Number Five: Whoa is that a Freudian slip that my reason number 5 is because of the c25k week number 5 is looming on the horizon. Im scared. Im not going to lie. Im pretty freaked out by what c25k thinks Im supposed to be doing next week. 8 minutes? Twice and then the final day 20 minutes???? WTH? Its almost incomprehensible and my brain is already trying to back track its way out of even trying. I barely have the five minutes down and already you want me to increase it by 15 minutes!!!
* Reason Number 6: My shins hurt. Ive been reading about it and trying to figure out what to do with them (ice, rest, ibuprophen) but the fact remains, they hurt and it is disappointing me.
/end reasons.
The truth of the matter is today Im frustrated with being fat. I know this may not be the way I feel tomorrow as Im walking the dogs and taking a break from running. Ill probably feel pretty good while Im walking up the stairs at my college job thinking about how I havent taken an elevator in over 2 months. Ill probably feel on top of everything as Im eating my big tupperware full of fruits and veggies while working but I cant ignore my frustrations.
Frustrations are a great way to bust through a particularly hard moment in ones life. Im frustrated at being fat and the food choices I made last night so I will take that frustration and push forward. Tomorrow I will walk my dogs a little farther (theyd like it if I walked them for 48 hours straight so no complaint will come from them). On Saturday Im going to be making a nice cold thai salad that a friend from CalorieKing posted that is low in calories but high in taste. Sunday I will take a deep breath and give it all Ive got bright and early on the waterfront while I attempt to run for 8 minutes!
Ive been finding solace in reading other blogs and seeing both success stories and stories that are not so successful. They all give me the wisdom I need to push past this frustration. Thanks to everyone out there for doing what youre doing.
What are your frustrations?
3 comments so far.
3.
a decade ago
I tend to get long-winded. It's a problem I'm still dealing with. heh.
by NEXUSNRG
2.
a decade ago
Wow, I just lost my comment. It was long (not as long as Jimmy's though).
I was exactly where you are, last week. It's tough, and one choice can easily trigger a chain reaction. It's so hard to control the feelings you get from it, I know. But you blogged about it which means you know it isn't a habit you want to have.
I agree you need to build some of these foods you miss into your plan otherwise I'm afraid I'll get a 911 call about you being passed out face down in a pile of manicotti formigiano or something.
As for C25K week 5, you should check out this thread. You'll be amazed at the strength you have built. By the time you tackle the 20 minute run, you will have already run 20 minutes, just not consecutively. You can do this!
http://www.calorieking.com/community/forums/Motivation-and-Moving-Forward/Week-5-day-3-of-C25K-are-you-kidding-me_dGhyZWFkX2lkPTIyMjE2OA.html
http://www.calorieking.com/community/forums/Member-Chat/C25K-knockdown-Danki-5-C25K-0_dGhyZWFkX2lkPTIyMjE3NA.html
As for your shins, do you have new shoes or have you been running on a new surface? Usually shin splints are caused by change in terrain or shoes that need to be replaced or need to be broken in.
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI
1.
a decade ago
I know it's a little too late to stop you from popping your lid, but I'd like to clue you in on something that might make you feel a little at ease about it.
:bang:
I looked at your diary all the way back to last Wednesday (7 days ago) and you consistently remained below your daily target. By the time of your splurge day before yesterday you had a deficit of 2,189 calories. So for 7 days you fell short by 2189 calories, then you subtract the 431 calories you went over and now your deficit is 1,758 calories for the past 7 days.
I look at this and my thinking would be that you're not going to hurt yourself from that italian/greek meal you had.
#2 2 lbs is not much and you'll probably drop that before the next weigh-in. I'm always bouncing between 1-2 lbs in between weigh-in's I know it's frustrating. I'd think once you pass all of the waste and flush the salt and water out of your system that 2 lbs will be history. I can't for the life of me believe that with a week long deficit of 2189 calories that a mere 431 cals over would cause 2 lbs that would take effort to lose.
#3 GET YOU SOME ICE CREAM. There are tons of sugar-free options in the super market that are good. My favorite is the Blue Bunny Delights crunch bar. It's like a nestle's crunch bar, only a bit smaller, taste just as good, but it's sugar free and only has 90 calories per bar. I usually eat one of those a day to satisfy my ice-cream sweet tooth, that or push-up's also 80 calories. I talked about Hardee's in my blog tonight, carl's Jr and hardees are the same company. I love their thickburgers. Bad bad bad though.
I know it's not a Carl's but if you wanna cheeseburger why not make yourself one. I successfully eat cheeseburgers on 1500 cal diet without a problem. Just go get some fresh ground beef lean (94/7) a 4oz burger with the 94/7 lean beef is only 160 calories. What I like to do is use that with fat-free american cheese (25 cal a slice) and season the burger how I like it, toppings, light mayo, ketchup etc. and that burger total is only 380 calories with the bun. Then I broil some steak fries in the oven add 110 calories for 7 large steak fries, total meal 490 calories.
If you didn't eat any of those doughnuts then you should give yourself a pat on the back because your willpower is stronger than mine. My biggest weakness is doughnuts. And I know how you feel, people here leave cookies and large bags of chips on the tables in the break room where anyone could just help themselves and it's very VERY hard for me to resist, especially when I'm hungry.
I don't think you wanna hear about my frustration, lets just say it's nothing about food or weight loss.
by NEXUSNRG