PRNCSSGRL's CalorieKing blog
Thursday, Apr 15 2010 - Banana Chips - the story
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Sometimes I wake up and wonder if Ill find something to write about. Something that will either give me an Ah-ha moment or at least help me to reflect on this LCJ. I wonder if the day will just go by and nothing will strike me as important enough to ponder
And then I stumble upon it.
You can see people at my office making better choices. Drinking water, instead of pop. Reaching for fruit, instead of the chocolate drawer. Taking stairs instead of the elevator. Making plans for walking a half marathon (which I will be participating in with them) and starting their own ventures with c25k.
People are bringing in more conscious type foods and today someone brought sweetened banana chips. I love banana chips but I dont love them right now. Im pretty used to just sticking to what I have in my cubicle drawer and what I pack for my daily snacks to get me through the day. I dont languish over the fact that Im not eating chocolate or that I cant ever have sugary treats ever again. I can. In fact if I wanted to today I could.
I dont want them.
I was asked if I could eat the banana chips? To which I said yes I could, but I probably wont. The reply to that was Oh youre being that good. I know it wasnt meant as anything but a simple reply but in hindsight it got me really thinking
What exactly does that mean Oh youre being that good?
Am I supposed to be doing bad things or are there levels of goodness to my new eating less / moving more habits? If I sustain from eating anything sweet or slightly bad do I go up a level? Am I trying to obtain a level 80 on this game? Where the hell is my Gnome Mage?
Over the past 4 months Ive taken some serious soul searching paths to find out who I am and what Im capable of doing. While on these paths, I find myself not wanting to eat anything that might cause me to feel upset, ashamed, defeated or frustrated. I want to eat cleaner, healthier and more consciously. Of course I can eat whatever I want and what I want right now doesnt include anything but the foods that make me feel good about the choices and decisions that Im making.
Everything I do right now has a consequence. Either positive or negative. Every time I put food in my mouth, I am taking control of the consequences. Every time I go to the gym, I am taking control of the consequences. Every time I run, I am taking control of the consequences.
Yes, its challenging. Yes, its difficult. Yes I cry a lot on this LCJ. I feel frustrations and disappointments. But for me there is no other alternative. I can either live a life of being fat and unresponsive to the world around me or I can start moving and live the life that was put before me.
So today I wont eat banana chips.
Not because Im being That good.
But because I am taking control.
Are you taking control of your life?
If the answer is no
What can I do to help?
And then I stumble upon it.
You can see people at my office making better choices. Drinking water, instead of pop. Reaching for fruit, instead of the chocolate drawer. Taking stairs instead of the elevator. Making plans for walking a half marathon (which I will be participating in with them) and starting their own ventures with c25k.
People are bringing in more conscious type foods and today someone brought sweetened banana chips. I love banana chips but I dont love them right now. Im pretty used to just sticking to what I have in my cubicle drawer and what I pack for my daily snacks to get me through the day. I dont languish over the fact that Im not eating chocolate or that I cant ever have sugary treats ever again. I can. In fact if I wanted to today I could.
I dont want them.
I was asked if I could eat the banana chips? To which I said yes I could, but I probably wont. The reply to that was Oh youre being that good. I know it wasnt meant as anything but a simple reply but in hindsight it got me really thinking
What exactly does that mean Oh youre being that good?
Am I supposed to be doing bad things or are there levels of goodness to my new eating less / moving more habits? If I sustain from eating anything sweet or slightly bad do I go up a level? Am I trying to obtain a level 80 on this game? Where the hell is my Gnome Mage?
Over the past 4 months Ive taken some serious soul searching paths to find out who I am and what Im capable of doing. While on these paths, I find myself not wanting to eat anything that might cause me to feel upset, ashamed, defeated or frustrated. I want to eat cleaner, healthier and more consciously. Of course I can eat whatever I want and what I want right now doesnt include anything but the foods that make me feel good about the choices and decisions that Im making.
Everything I do right now has a consequence. Either positive or negative. Every time I put food in my mouth, I am taking control of the consequences. Every time I go to the gym, I am taking control of the consequences. Every time I run, I am taking control of the consequences.
Yes, its challenging. Yes, its difficult. Yes I cry a lot on this LCJ. I feel frustrations and disappointments. But for me there is no other alternative. I can either live a life of being fat and unresponsive to the world around me or I can start moving and live the life that was put before me.
So today I wont eat banana chips.
Not because Im being That good.
But because I am taking control.
Are you taking control of your life?
If the answer is no
What can I do to help?
4 comments so far.
4.
a decade ago
Tara,
I'll have to say that you have a very solid grasp of things on your own personal LCJ. I've said it before, I can't help but say it again, you're doing awesome. That approach to food is positive. You know you "could" have those banana chips but right now at this time in your life you know that it'll have a negative consequence. You know that one day you'll come to a point that you'll be able to happily enjoy those kinds of treats one day and it not have an adverse effect on your lifestyle change. It's the same approach I have too.
Strong in the force are you...
by NEXUSNRG
3.
a decade ago
LOL at your burpees comment! You stand, then bend down like you're touching your toes, put your hands on the ground, kick your feet behind you, then kick them back up and stand. They are common in Boot Camp workouts, and go by many names. The twist my little inspired trainer does is to add all the kettlebell stuff, so I'm always balancing on them, lifting them, and the entire time I want to throw them at her.
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI
2.
a decade ago
I hear ya, I know people don't mean to say things to make us feel bad. But you hit it right on the head. If one day I decide to treat myself, it's very noticable same as the days I refuse to partake in a group lunch etc... Sometimes it drives me crazy, but I have been trying not to look to much into it. I have lost so much weight and I did it, not them so I try to let it go.
by MRSDSB
1.
a decade ago
Aliza convinced me to get my own food dehydrator and make my own banana chips. I will eat them. I will eat them. I WILL EAT THEM! But first, I will make them. No, first I will buy the dehydrator, read the instructions, and then make them.
By the way, you inspired me to join a gym with a pool. Just thought I'd letcha know!
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI