I allowed myself 24 hours to be emotionally distraught over my first weight gain and today I'm ready to move on and move forward. Here are some things I know to be true about my life right now:

I do not weigh 263 pounds
I am not living the life of my brother
I am not sitting in front of the computer for hours and hours on end
I am moving more today than I ever have in my entire life
My muscles are getting stronger
I look forward to getting up in the morning
I am inspired by folks that have fought this war before me
I am inspiring folks that are just beginning to wage their own fight
I am emotionally stronger than ever
I am focused
I am looking forward
I am a runner
I will do whatever it physically takes to never go back to where I came.
I am in a better place today because I am learning to love who I am and what I can offer this world.

24 hours is over and it's time to get back to this fight. Last week was chaotic and emotional but it does not dictate how I move forward. It does not dictate the dedication to my own life and becoming a stronger, faster, more emotionally stable person. The experiences of my family members are not my experiences today. I know what it's like to feel despair and depression. I know what it's like to have to convince yourself to get out of bed only to return because you can't function in the real world. I know what hopelessness feels like but not today...

NOT TODAY!

This morning I strapped my running shoes on and ran because I have hope.

I finally ran an entire 5k without stopping. NOT ONE STOP! I wanted to. I cried because I wanted to walk but today's run was about moving on and moving forward. Running towards a new life and away from an old one. Running toward change and away from mediocracy. Running toward living life and away from emotional death. What my brother chooses will not deter me from my choices.

EVER!

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Superman called today and said the following: "Hey there favorite client of mine...just called to tell you to be prepared to get dirty tomorrow during our session"...I have the best.trainer.ever!