PRNCSSGRL's CalorieKing blog
Thursday, May 20 2010 - Tipping point / exciting news
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After reading Brandons (http://solongfatass.com/), and Marys (http://amerrylife.com/) post about what their tipping points were for starting this journey I thought I would examine what my tipping point was as well. Im often asked what was the deciding factor but in hind site I dont think it was one particular event but a bunch of little ones that eventually turned into the big unmistakable elephant smack dab in the middle of my life.
* My Depression while I wasnt fully aware of the degree of my depression I knew it lingered. I can only describe it as a throbbing pain that eventually you just get used too. I was used to being depressed. I functioned well in that I went to work and I kept up the house duties. Outside of that I was just an empty shell.
* My Dependency to World of Warcraft Ive referred to this monstrosity before and Im sure I will bring it up again. I played this game day in and day out. I stopped being social (unless it was through the game). I felt important when online. I didnt feel important in real life. It was all I thought about and it consumed me.
* My Brother He came to live with me back in April of 2009. His alcoholism brought to the fore front my own addictive behaviors and the notion that my path (while not as detrimental as his) was not going in a positive direction either.
* This picture was taken back in September of 2009.
UGH. I cry every time I look at it. I cant believe I was so oblivious to what I was allowing to have happen to my body and my life. This is the hardest photo to look at and I will never go back to this. NEVER! (btw that beautiful woman is my Aunt Kathee and I am absolutely obsessed with her).
* Tyler (http://344pounds.com) I came across his blog in a Google Reader search back in October 2009. As I read his story, I began to feel a tug in my own life to do something about my weight, and my life. I will always be grateful for his bravery in putting his life out there and in doing so saving the lives of others.
* Pho & CalorieKing Sounds silly I know but one day I was eating a delicious bowl of Pho and I started to wonder about these little things called calories. I did a search on what the calorie content was and the first thing that popped up was the website Calorieking. That was during the last week of December. I signed up for the free trial membership. When the last day of the trial was over, it was December 29th, 2010 and I decided it was time to make a change.
Was it an easy decision to make? No. Was it easy to implement change? Hell no. Over the first few weeks I made very small changes to what I was doing. I gave up World of Warcraft (not an easy feat mind you). I promised myself to only take the stairs (as long as it wasnt 5 floors up). I began walking my dogs on a daily basis and I slowly began to ween myself off of diet coke. The first month was painfully hard. Painful because I was quickly learning this journey was not about the weight but about taking control of my life. I had to start intensive therapy in order to remain consistent and not allow myself to give up. That month came and went and Ive been going full speed ahead since.
I dont know who was living my life before December 29th 2009.
I know now.
What was your tipping point?
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Here comes the exciting news.
Are you ready?
Are you sitting down?
Cause its pretty exciting.
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I AM DOING A TRIATHLON IN SEPTEMBER!
I can swim, I can run and I can bike.
Now I just need to bring it all together.
Cant talk about it just yet cause Im still taking it in.
But there ya go!
* My Depression while I wasnt fully aware of the degree of my depression I knew it lingered. I can only describe it as a throbbing pain that eventually you just get used too. I was used to being depressed. I functioned well in that I went to work and I kept up the house duties. Outside of that I was just an empty shell.
* My Dependency to World of Warcraft Ive referred to this monstrosity before and Im sure I will bring it up again. I played this game day in and day out. I stopped being social (unless it was through the game). I felt important when online. I didnt feel important in real life. It was all I thought about and it consumed me.
* My Brother He came to live with me back in April of 2009. His alcoholism brought to the fore front my own addictive behaviors and the notion that my path (while not as detrimental as his) was not going in a positive direction either.
* This picture was taken back in September of 2009.
UGH. I cry every time I look at it. I cant believe I was so oblivious to what I was allowing to have happen to my body and my life. This is the hardest photo to look at and I will never go back to this. NEVER! (btw that beautiful woman is my Aunt Kathee and I am absolutely obsessed with her).
* Tyler (http://344pounds.com) I came across his blog in a Google Reader search back in October 2009. As I read his story, I began to feel a tug in my own life to do something about my weight, and my life. I will always be grateful for his bravery in putting his life out there and in doing so saving the lives of others.
* Pho & CalorieKing Sounds silly I know but one day I was eating a delicious bowl of Pho and I started to wonder about these little things called calories. I did a search on what the calorie content was and the first thing that popped up was the website Calorieking. That was during the last week of December. I signed up for the free trial membership. When the last day of the trial was over, it was December 29th, 2010 and I decided it was time to make a change.
Was it an easy decision to make? No. Was it easy to implement change? Hell no. Over the first few weeks I made very small changes to what I was doing. I gave up World of Warcraft (not an easy feat mind you). I promised myself to only take the stairs (as long as it wasnt 5 floors up). I began walking my dogs on a daily basis and I slowly began to ween myself off of diet coke. The first month was painfully hard. Painful because I was quickly learning this journey was not about the weight but about taking control of my life. I had to start intensive therapy in order to remain consistent and not allow myself to give up. That month came and went and Ive been going full speed ahead since.
I dont know who was living my life before December 29th 2009.
I know now.
What was your tipping point?
____________________________________________________________________________
Here comes the exciting news.
Are you ready?
Are you sitting down?
Cause its pretty exciting.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I AM DOING A TRIATHLON IN SEPTEMBER!
I can swim, I can run and I can bike.
Now I just need to bring it all together.
Cant talk about it just yet cause Im still taking it in.
But there ya go!
7 comments so far.
7.
a decade ago
My tipping point was last summer when I hit a high weight that was heavier than I was was during either of my pregnancies. I saw 178 on the scale and cried because I couldn't imagine ever being that heavy without another creature in my belly adding the heft. I too was dealing with depression, but didn't realize it at the time. I was grieving my father's sudden death and killing myself one bite at a time.
I reset my CK starting weight about 10 days later and was at 173 after making a few changes in my intake. The first 20 pounds came off with a few more changes in intake. Then I yo-yoed for 6 months in the 150s. In April, I finally got serious about adding exercise into the formula and the weight is coming off slowly.
You've inspired me to dust off my Couch to 5K podcast next month. It's about getting more cardio, but I think you've helped me decide to get out of my comfort zone. It's comfortable for me to go to my back garage and lift weights and use my ET. The idea of hitting the trails around my house to do C25K makes my heart race in an anxious sort of way, and I need to conquer that.
I'm excited to follow your triathlon training.
Thank you so much for putting it all out there. You're an amazing person. Have a wonderful weekend, Tara.
by EPMOMMA
6.
a decade ago
Yet again you amaze me! I can't wait to hear more (when you are ready to talk about it) about trialthlon.
As far as my tipping point! I am not sure how to really answer this. That makes me sad to say, but I have been dealing with this darn weight thing since about the 4th grade. But, I think the thing that made me say 2010 was my year was going to my class reunion feeling all pretty and then seeing the photos and hated what I saw. I started to hate me even more than I did before and it was affecting my life in so many ways. I just wanted to look in the mirror and love the person who was looking back. Still working at all this but that's part of my tipping point.
by MRSDSB
5.
a decade ago
You really are a warrior girl!! I am so very impressed with you with what you have overcome and what you strive to now do in your life to make yourself better and healthier. Your going to do great on the triathlon...that is one that I have never even imagined trying. I hate bike riding..although maybe if I had a decnet pike that would help.
by TNYBUBBLZ
4.
a decade ago
My tipping point was when Roy died and myy doctor wanted to put me in the hospital because he felt I was going to have a stroke or die from an aneurysm. That's in the past now, although the damage has already been done to my body, I hope the good I'm doing that will add an extra 10 years to the pot.
Proud of you! Make sure you get a GOOD bike! If you want suggestions, I can email you. They are pricey but will aid you in the race as for time and endurance.
Position in your swim heat is crucial. Find out where exactly you'll be swimming...lake, pool, etc. Pay attention where you swim to avoid being kicked in the head, chest, anywhere else...try tp make your position towards the edge...farther away from the pack will help your endurance and finish in a nice tempo/pace.
Don't worry, there are people BIGGER than YOU participating....
I'm very proud of you!
HUGS,
Aliza
by PAPERBACKNOVEL
3.
a decade ago
You can come over anytime. I actually was given muscle soak epsom salts as a gift - they are quite amazing. Though the were intended for gardeners and I don't know why - maybe cuz they smell pretty.
As for the trainer, she works as a sole proprietor in a personal training studio, so the options are get my money back or finish sessions with her. It sucks because I work with her sister, and she is my ex's cousin, so all the drama that can unfold if I ask for a refund is not something I want to deal with. And these people LOVE their drama.
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI
2.
a decade ago
I had several sort of tipping points but I think the big one was working at Lane Bryant and not being able to wear most of the clothing because I was too big for the styles.
It didn't help that a friend talking about how I got the job and she didn't made the comment "Well you look like you should work there." So, yeah.
and wow! Triathlon! That's super exciting! Good for you!
by REICREATURE
1.
a decade ago
WHOLLY CRAP LADY! What an amazing challenge for you - you are definitely ready for it - you've accomplished so many things physically.
Oh and just a warning - Nutella can be very addictive.
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI