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Wednesday, Sep 29 2010 - 30 days...
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Yesterday I weighed myself 4 times.
Ive been able to go one week and not step on the scale. When that week was over I went back to getting on that damn little square box 5 6 times a day. Next I went two weeks without getting on the scale. When that was over old behaviors crept in within a few days and I was back to weighing myself multiple times through out the day.
This is not a behavior I wish to keep.
I know I have a hard time setting boundaries for myself when there is no accountability involved. I can say Im not going to get on the scale but if someone one isnt involved personally in this challenge I know it would be good for a few days (as with the one week) but then old behaviors (thought patterns) begin to push their way back into my everyday life. I walked into the gym last night after weighing for the 4th time yesterday (one should not weigh themselves before boot camp for sure, since it makes it harder to feel good about the ass kicking youre going to receive), on the verge of tears and asked Godfather for another no scale limit. He said two weeks. I said I could go longer
He said one month.
This morning is my last official weigh in until October 29th. As I stepped on the scale for the final time at 4am I did so with a smile on my face and my heart a little lighter today. Im hoping this will finally break the addiction (and Im not afraid to call it an addiction) to the scale and the number that constantly defines who I am as a person.
This LCJ is about knowing what you need in order to make these changes stick for a lifetime. I need to break this addiction. So today is my final weigh for a month. I am going to make this happen.
Do you know what you need to make lifetime changes?
Are you willing to make it happen?
Ive been able to go one week and not step on the scale. When that week was over I went back to getting on that damn little square box 5 6 times a day. Next I went two weeks without getting on the scale. When that was over old behaviors crept in within a few days and I was back to weighing myself multiple times through out the day.
This is not a behavior I wish to keep.
I know I have a hard time setting boundaries for myself when there is no accountability involved. I can say Im not going to get on the scale but if someone one isnt involved personally in this challenge I know it would be good for a few days (as with the one week) but then old behaviors (thought patterns) begin to push their way back into my everyday life. I walked into the gym last night after weighing for the 4th time yesterday (one should not weigh themselves before boot camp for sure, since it makes it harder to feel good about the ass kicking youre going to receive), on the verge of tears and asked Godfather for another no scale limit. He said two weeks. I said I could go longer
He said one month.
This morning is my last official weigh in until October 29th. As I stepped on the scale for the final time at 4am I did so with a smile on my face and my heart a little lighter today. Im hoping this will finally break the addiction (and Im not afraid to call it an addiction) to the scale and the number that constantly defines who I am as a person.
This LCJ is about knowing what you need in order to make these changes stick for a lifetime. I need to break this addiction. So today is my final weigh for a month. I am going to make this happen.
Do you know what you need to make lifetime changes?
Are you willing to make it happen?
6 comments so far.
6.
a decade ago
You are committed more than anyone I know. You are right - you do need to know what it takes and then just do it. The thing that impresses me... is that you actually know what those things are! My sense of self awareness isn't as strong as yours.
by MUDDYMAMA
5.
a decade ago
Wow, that had to feel G.O.O.D.!!!
by MENOKEO
4.
a decade ago
Good for you girlfriend! You can do this. OCD thoughts about a scale are not a healthy obsession.
by CANDACEPH
3.
a decade ago
That's an awesome weigh in!
I think in a month you are going to be so surprised! Good luck with your challenge.
by MRSDSB
2.
a decade ago
I get on the scale twice a day. Once in the morning and once before bed. I'm not sure what I think that will accomplish.
:thumbu2:
Godfather sounds like an awesome trainer. You are lucky to have found such a good one.
You are doing amazing woman. I am so inspired by you.
by THORNEAPPLE
1.
a decade ago
Wow! I read this entry and was thinking . . . why do you worry so much? You've got it all together. Really. I consider you one of my CK heroes.
I went back and read your December 2009 blog entries and was amazed. It was like I could have written those. Now you REALLY are my HERO! You've come so far.
I'm not sure that I know everything that I need to do to make lifetime changes, but I am so grateful for the examples I have here on CK. Thanks Tara!
by KRIS319