OK, so I liked my "Screw the Scale" mantra, but I've decided to go with something slightly more positive - "Choose Life!" I love this song...


Choose Life
Big Tent Revival

A choice is set before you now
Living or dying, blessing or cursing
You know, the time has come around
To turn from your fighting
And rest in his mercy

Choose life, that you might live
The life that He gives
He gives you forever
Choose life, the way that it's true
From the one who chose you
Your father in Heaven
Choose life

Trust the Lord with all your heart
All of your soul and all of your being
Hold on, listen and obey
Surrender your life into His keeping

Choose life, that you might live
The life that He gives
He gives you forever
Choose life, the way that it's true
From the one who chose you
Your father in Heaven
Choose life

And the weight you're under
Will be lifted away
And the world will wonder
What happened here today
Then you'll stand right here and say

Choose life, that you might live
The life that He gives
He gives you forever
Choose life, the way that it's true
From the one who chose you
Your father in Heaven
Choose life


Nadine asked the question yesterday, "Does being here, surrounded by constant reminders of weight/calories help or hurt?" (And no...the question doesn't offend me in the slightest).

I've been asking myself that very question. Up until earlier this week, if I were to be honest I'd probably have to say coming back to CK has not been the best decision for me. But then I decided I just can't partake in weighing myself anymore because it puts me in a bad bad place. And since I got rid of my last scale and have followed through with that, it's like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders (no pun intended!)

And as of today I've decided that I need to stop counting calories too. My dietitian would kick my butt if she knew I were counting calories again. We go grocery shopping together and she blacks out all of my nutrition labels so I can't count calories, and then I totally disregard the meal plan she gives me and come here and add up my calories anyways. I can't do that anymore. So...no more weighing, and no more calorie counting for me! I've said this before, and then started counting or getting on the scale again, so if anyone sees any numbers on my blog...call me out on it!

So essentially, as of today I guess I'm just using CK as a place to blog, because 1) I need to vent, and sometimes I just want to feel like people hear me...2) I like the people here...3) I like the layout...and 4) Only members can see my blog so I feel like it's semi-private here, or at least not open to the ENTIRE internet world like free blog sites. So - I guess that's my rationale for staying. Not that I need a rationale for staying on a site that I paid to be on...but I guess I'm feeling a little guilty about being on a calorie counting website when I know my dietitian would NOT approve. So...from now on this is simply a blog spot...nothing else...what other people count or don't count or weigh or don't weigh here is up to them...I'm just here to blog. OK, I feel better now! I can see my dietitian this week with a clean conscience!