Just had a chat with my therapist last week about letting go of control in other areas of my life and how that will affect the food and FAT aspect of my life. Funny how all this stuff works isn't it??? Hang in there. We :love: you and you are awesome! :kiss:

by MOM22SONZ

I love your choose life plan and I think that is a great motto for you. That fact that you know what your doing is self destructive is half the battle so you are on the right path to getting better. Let your dietitian and therapist help you move forward. Just know that so many of us struggle with this whole eating thing and not liking how we look. I also don't feel adequate offering any advice to you but I wanted you to know that I was thinking of you. My younger sister struggles with the same issues as you and we almost lost her twice so I really wish I could just hug you and let you know that you can do it.:love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love:

by DETERMINEDTOLOSE

:kiss: awareness is half the battle. Don't think of them as being unhappy with you. Think of them as wanting to help and trying to find better ways to do so. I don't mean to be dispensing advice, but you have to think of your journey to heath as something you are choosing (as your program "choose life" reminds you ) rather than as something imposed by your doctors. :love:

by NEIMANMARXIST

:kiss: I wish there was some magic thing to say that would change your focus. The hard part about any eating disorder is that we all KNOW our thinking is disordered. I mean, come on. I KNOW that the bag of Reese's isn't going to make me feel better. But when the compulsion is there it's really hard to over come that gut wrenching need and get to the logic underneath. :love: I guess just keep moving forward, and try to do one thing each day that you know is healthy for you. One thing that doesn't perpetuate the disordered thoughts.

by CBL

Your before picture hit a nerve with me, only my set of boxes was layers of fat. I don't know how to help, but I wanted to reach out. You do have a future. Don't let it scare you.

by MIRIAM

I have never been where you are so I feel inadequate in offering advice :cross3: Your dietitian and therapist definitely have your best interests at heart, I wish I could offer you the magic words that would make following their advice easier. It sounds like you WANT to....so why not give the control back to their "plan" -- instead of feeling out of control?:kiss:

by NMA5632