Ok I am not dicsiplined to journal everyday. I resolve to do this.
I find myself very frustrated over stuff with my family. They all want to go their own direction but something within me wants to hold them back.
I am always seeking help with cleaning house but I don't motivate my own self.
We bought our house saying that we could take care of. However, my husband does not desire to get off the couch on the weekends to do this. I tell him we should have just stayed renters and then someone else could fix problems that arise. He says its too hard to these things. We don't have the money to hire professionals. We do however have a couple of friends that are knowledgeable but he is too prideful to ask them. So then I ask and he gets mad saying I don't think he can do these things. This viscous circle goes all over again and again.
Today I will do my best with my eating knowing my husband will just lay around watching tv while I try to get the laundry done for the work week ahead.
I also had a couple of people PM me regarding a post I left about not being motivated and always running my same viscous cycle. They both challenged me to get goals and stick with them. It is time to take a mini goal step and do this.

Mini Goals as of January 8th are
Walk 15 min a day (more if my knee is up to it)
Drink 8 glasses of water
Plan and eat sensibly
Don't let negativity fill my mind.