OK, I am at work. This is the hardest part of the day. I have a snack table right across from my cubile is plain sight. There is nothing on it right now and hoping nothing will be today. It was really bad during the holidays. It seemed that everyone knew how to bake and no matter how it tasted I still threw it into my mouth.
Today I am planning on sensible eating. I packed fruit a sensible lunch and am drinking plenty of water.
I find that I want to be the center of attention as well as be approved by all I work with and for. When I am not called on I feel a sense of nonworth and that I can't function as I think I should.
There are days when I think I can't do it by myself. I have read and lurked around the boards hearing that other people are losing weight and they attibute it to the friends they have made on the boards. Why is it so hard for me. I can barely strike up a converstation with someone face to face let alone try on the boards. I never know what to say and feel so inadequate. I spent years on drugs and feel that my mind has been wasted that nothing but my own personal thoughts go on in my head.
I need to work on my social skills as a person and stop being so isolated.
Mini goals today
Stop being negative about myself
stay away from the snack table - should something appear
drink lots and lots of water.