It's time to stop misbehaving and do what I am suppose to do to get healthy. Lately my left knee has been troubling me. I didn't think the accident I got into years ago would have an effect now. I have been scared to really walk fast at all. I am afraid to really damage it. Just today a consultant where I work talked with me about it. She said my weight is causing the severity of the issue. She believes I am doing it harm by being so heavy. I am morbidly obese but am afraid to change what I know. I don't have anyone to teach me good behavior and my family is so negative to the change. With tears in my eyes I really want to do the right thing. I hate myself and the way I look. I am the largest person most places I go ie:church, store, work, bus. It is all the same I'm the fat lady that can't board the bus or walk the same pace as others so I am left behind. I have to hand on to grocery carts to make it thru the store. I am ashamed of me. Friday is normally Fast Food night at hour house because of it being payday. Well I will either chose salad or eat at home. I cannot keep doing this to me. I get small aches in my chest, my knee hurts all the time, I have no motivation to do my hair nothing changes the way I look. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have no excuses for staying this way. I cannot blame anyone else but me for this. I am 41 years old and if I can't retrain myself then I better by a plot at the cemetary and start teaching my husband about the bills and finances. People guess my age at 10 years older than what I really am. That is a total shame to look that old, feel that old but know in my heart I am still young.
Time to make some serious changes. No information overload, One step at a time.