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Wednesday, Feb 21 2007 - Donuts are for the Devil . . .

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Well by the title of this blog you can well say that donuts got the best of me yesterday. Alfonso (the analyst that gives me problems) brought in two boxes full of my favorite place donuts. Guess what I ATE FOUR OF THEM! On top of TOM, getting up at 2:15 a.m. then eating all them donuts I was awful ILL. I left work early. I truly went over my calories yesterday by a landfall. I am so angry with my self for doing so good then failing. I even feel that some of the gals on CK won't have anything to do with me or my PM to them because I am so wishy washy in my attitude about everything. Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with me. Is it just feeling sorry for myself or what. When I am gone for a while it seems that no one cares. Do I appear jealous well, yes this is the :evil: green eyed monster that lives deep inside me. I think it is the one that forces donuts down my piehole.
It is 4:42 a.m. and all I can do is sit here and wonder what I did to push everyone away. I have to get ready for work and don't want to. Now the dear dear husband and gotten out of bed and I will have to get off the computer. I guess better time than never.
Sorry I went on and on. I just have to let it out. Perhaps this is why I never had any friends growing up cause I always let everyone know exactly how I felt without dealing with it myself.
I hope you all can forgive me.

Edited to remove something that may have offended somebody.

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6 comments so far.

6.

a decade ago

Hey, we all have our good days and bad days. I would have a tough time resisting them, too. I was on the phone in a meeting the other day and they told me that they had donut holes. I was so relieved that I couldn't see or smell them.
(((((((((((((((((((((( Kathy ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) We care. :heart1:

by SJ1320

SJ1320

5.

a decade ago

It has taken me years to figure this out about myself. My opinion of me was far worse then anyone else's opinion about me. When I felt bad or had a self-esteem issue going on.....I felt others looked at me the same way. I hope that makes sense because I cannot put my thoughts into proper words today.

You have friends here :love:

I had a great day yesterday, and last night craved sweets so badly. I ate chocolate chips . :bang: That shot my good day all to heck. :(

by LUCKYDUCK2

LUCKYDUCK2

4.

a decade ago

I broke down and bought this crumb topped, iced, cheesecake donut today. Probably the equivalent of 4 regular donuts! I deliver to Maple donuts warehouse every wednesday & I've been eyeing this thing up for months - now I know what it's like and I never have to eat one again, right??!! :$ BTW - you can blame any form of temporary insanity on TOM (such as eating 4 donuts, being wishy washy, being a total b*tch, feeling jealous, etc) :smile1: There is NOTHING wrong with you

by WOLFENA

WOLFENA

3.

a decade ago

Kathy,

Don't be so hard on yourself. You're a great person! You just need to learn to accept yourself as you are and that sometimes means you're not perfect! Look at me!!! I didn't eat 4 donuts yesterday, but I was definitely on an eating roll! Scarfed down anything that wasn't tied down and that didn't eat me first. I truly DO know how you feel though. We wonder what in the world is wrong with us when we can't say NO to donuts! Personally, I'd have been right there with ya eating ALL 4 of those darn evil things if they had been here. They are TOTALLY a weakness for me and I truly do best to give them a wide birth. I'm surviving at work with the food MOST days, not all, by covering the food trough with a tablecloth or even napkins if I have to. If I don't see them constantly staring at me every time I walk by, I'm not so tempted. Please tell yourself that YOU LOVE YOURSELF! No matter what!!! And that you are WORTHY of friends and you are WORTHY of treating yourself well. Because GF, YOU ARE!!! Being overweight...okay okay...I'm MORBIDLY OBESE...doesn't define the person we are inside. It plays a role in our behaviors, sure. But it isn't who we are. So stop beating up on my friend Kathy!!! Today was a better day for me and tomorrow will be a better day for you too. One day at a time one meal at a time. I have about 2 to 3 "good" eating days and then 3 or 4 "bad" eating days. So I'm right there with ya. But you know...ANYTHING worth doing takes time, patience, and PRACTICE. We have to PRACTICE eating healthy. And that sometimes means we fall on our face or stuff our pieholes!!! So what do we do???? We pick ourself up, dust the powdered sugar off our face and TRY AGAIN!!! KEEP ON TRYING!!! NEVER GIVE UP!!! :) Big hug to you!
Becky

by KELTIKROZE

KELTIKROZE

2.

a decade ago

Sending you much love! :love: You need a hug and kindenss. You are mad at yourself for eating the donuts and trying to punish yourself mentally. We are not here to be mean to you when you are having a hard time. This is where you come to vent and get support. I think you need to look deep into yourself and figure out what you can do to help yourself to not eat 4 donuts. Oh say by not thinking that you can't have any at all. Instead think that you can have a donut and one will be pefectly satisfying. Giving yourself permission to have these things will actually help you to avoid them. My motto is: You can't change the past but you can learn from it! I love you! :kiss::love: Linda

by MA

1.

a decade ago

Donuts are completely :evil: I have sworn them off completely but it is NOT easy. :nono5: Don't sweat it. They won't get the BEST of you again!! We must remain strong! :laugh5:

by MOM22SONZ

MOM22SONZ