11/1 – 160.2
11/2 – 158.4
11/3 – 160.2
11/4 – 160.0
11/5 – 159.8
11/6 – 159.4
11/7 – 159.8

Scale has not moved much this month. That is totally OK with me, I have not stressed too much about what I am eating. This is a really BIG DEAL for me. I love food and feel very deprived when I can’t have what I want. Does that sound childish or what…I think some of this eating stuff is very childish.

Lotz of stressors in life in general right now. Good thing is, I am not eating to solve the issues.

Learning lotz during this time and leaning on my Lord and Savior…literally. The other day I was so overwhelmed with stress and issues I sat on the floor next to the couch, laid my head on the couch and called out to my Heavenly Father to just hold me and to take my issues and handle them for me…I could not move. I visualized myself with my head in His lap and Him stroking my hair…like an earthly father might stroke a distrait child. I was comforted and know He was with me and in control—my spirit was calmed.

Did he solve my issues?—no, they cannot be solved in one day, but I am making “baby steps” toward healing for the situations. Someone on a blog asked once why Christians don’t have it easy if God takes care of us…I actually read a great reply to that today in a small devotional I have been reading… I want to share it with you…really I am putting it here so I can find it anytime I need it.

Battlefield of the Mind Devotional by Joyce Meyers

“Why do we have to suffer?” “If God truly loves us, why do all the bad things happen to us?” I hear such questions often. For thousands of years, people smarter than I am have wrestled with those questions, and they still haven’t discovered the answers. I don’t even try to answer the questions. I do make one comment, however: “If God only blessed us after we became believers—if He took away all suffering, hardship, and turmoil for Christians—wouldn’t it be a way to bribe people into faith?”

“That’s not the way God works. The Lord wants us to come to Him out of love and because we know we’re needy—so needy that only He can fill thoseneeds for us.

“The reality is that from the time of birth until we go home to be with Jesus, we will suffer at times. Some have harder tasks than others, but suffering is still suffering.”

(I was reading this during my morning quiet time and my daughter came in and sat next to me...I read it outloud to her and it was such a blessed moment! I am cherishing that moment and remembering it right now and as the days go on, I will look back on this and be blessed.)

The suffering in our family is very difficut right now. I believe God has blessed me with this site and the friends that are also believers (and those who may not be believers, but are very caring and understanding) so I can share and be comforted by you.

This blog is for me, to look back and remember…not only the weight struggles, but also some of the life struggles. I have not opened my blog for family members or anyone that is not on CK. I am enjoying meeting all of you and sharing our experiences…some only regarding the ups and downs of the weight scale. Others, deeper, harder life issues are discussed among us and we can comfort one another.

Thank you all for being there and listening…

The Bible Verse that went with this devotional today is: And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, Who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will Himself complete and make you what you ought to be, establish and ground you securely, and strengthen, and settle you. --1 Peter 5:10

He has given me “free will” I can do this on my own, or with his strength…I choose His strength.