Why do I work out?

Is it so I'll end up looking like Janet Jackson? Or is it because I TRULY believe I have the right to be whole - in health and happiness? Better yet, is it because I believe I'll be a better person, wife and mother?

Why do I work out?

I work out in part because I DO want to be healthy. Unfortunately though, I keep thinking if I have this ONE major event that will happen to me, it'll whip me into shape and give me incentive. Nope - that didn't happen and the truth is, it shouldn't have had to.

What did happen though is an incident at work. The party involved surely has moved me to do something. They've incited me to kick, punch and work out as never before.

Though I'm sure it's sad to let someone else negatively motivate you, at this point, I really don't know what else will.

Routine is what works best for me and I can admit it. I love awakening early in the morning and starting my day with exercise. Perhaps I shared that love with one too many people though and instead of talking about it, I need to be about it.

Also, I don't care WHAT CalKing says, I DO NOT want to step on another scale. I became obsessed and that couldn't be good. I'm done wasting money, time, effort and energy; none of which I have to spare. I told C I WILL NOT be stepping on a scale any time soon either and I mean it. It frustrates me.

That along with my "unknown" medical condition. As a woman, I'm convinced my PMS lasts more than my cycle itself and often 3 weeks out of the month. Thankfully, new meds should help with that and many other issues I'm currently experiencing.

Tomorrow will be day 10 of my "Silent Transformation." I'm praying and I've asked all my close friends for prayer as well. I've got to get through this, but only God knows how.

I suppose I need to faithfully keep up in CalKing also since that's helped me out tremendously in the past.

Back to my silent motivator though: thank you...