everytime I watch the Lifetime channel I watch for both of us
everytime I step on the scale I do it for both of us
When I pet snowy-boy I do it for both of us.
When I chose a healthy food, I do it for both of us.
When I went to see Greg blast off, I did it for both of us.

I wear my gold locket with your hair in it everyday
I rub it like a worry stone when I miss you, or when I get anxious
it was so hard to take your name and phone number out of my address book

I know you weren't planning on leaving
the winter was so cold and lonely
No sunny days came to give us hope
and winter lasted through April
But you couldn't last...

I found you one day in your bed dead
I say I found you... but YOU were not there
Your body was there, but your soul was long gone
Your spirit took flight
I was too late
You escaped gravity to dwell forever in the realms of peace

I can't believe your gone.
Now your house is empty
Scrubbed clean by Linda's loving hands
Mowed and trimmed by your brother's loving hands

My stuff still in your basement
last to leave
last to understand

Can't let go
Rub the locket
where are you?
Have you seen our Mother in the realms of peace?
Are there angels with you?
What is it like?

Brother escaped gravity too
Dad and I were mute with fear
How could we lose another
He came back
But you didn't

Now there is only silence
a few words on this page
your picture on my bookcase
nothing is the same

I will escape too someday
Be patient and watch for me.
Until then I will never forget you
precious sister.
Amen.