Yesterday, I got back on track. I have been logging all the food and exercise into my diary and exercising. I met with my trainer yesterday. Yes....I am very sore, but it feels good to know I did something. I am very tired today and I am not sure why, but I am proud of myself for getting back on track.

The fact is that I will always have weight as an issue. As frustrating as it is and as unfair as it seems, it has been something I have lived with everyday. I have never been a normal weight. I want to get to the point where it is not controlling my life. I don't want to feel guilty about food or not exercising. I want to do the things I know I need to do. Now is the time. I have to remember it is a marathon, not a sprint.

I am excited by the fact that I am trying to convince some friends/family to form a weight loss group. We each put in $ and the "biggest looser" gets it. I hope they will join me as it is time to get serious. I am almost 40 for goodness sakes!