Just got home from camping. I didn't do to bad. Didn't snack like I use to. I'm going to breakfast with my mom in the morning. I plan on being good (fruit instead of potatoes, tea instead of coffee, egg whites instead of the whole egg). I'm so tired of being fat and I just want a quick fix. I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to get one. It took me just as long to gain the weight as it is going to lose it. I want my self confidence back and I want my sexuality back too. I'm tired of looking at skinny people and just wishing I was one of them. I'm just tired. I have to make myself to this. No one else is going to do it for me. I'm done. I'm not doing this for any one else but myself.