THEFATCHICK's Sep 2014 CalorieKing Blog
Thank you for your supportive comments over the past few days it means a lot. I'm saw the GEN DR last night and I lost 10lbs over the last two weeks according to his scale but I've actually lost about 5 lbs in the past few days and this is not how I want to do it. Going back to work today and hope for a softer day.
I'm still here, haven't been tracking calories but have been at least trying to make "healthier" choices although I'm sure my calories are way under. I'm also trying to stay mindful of portion sizes, this is just the best I can do right now. I'm struggling to function, to move on, to pick up the pieces and step forward, I'm stuck and I know it's not good but I'm trying.
I'm trying to find the strength I once had but I feel so broken.
This year has been the most mentally and emotionally challenging and devistating for me. I thought most if the turmoil was behind me but life kicked me square in the teeth and stomach, leaving me lying on the floor gasping for air. In all of this I'm trying to remember to take care of myself, feed myself with food and love but it's hard. My refuge is when I'm sleeping and my nightmares come when I'm awake. Yesterday I list two pounds I'm sure from stress and I don't even remember if I ate. My em...
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Good morning. Sometimes life sends a harsh reminder to us of how fragile life is. Yesterday was a sad day, I went to a viewing for a friend's Mom who had a stroke last week and passed Saturday. Having lost my own Mom this year, my heart aches for him. As I walked out of the funeral home my youngest daughter called to inform me the son of a family friend had over dosed yesterday morning, his father finding him, trying to save him and calling 911. I could not bear to think of myself in this situa...
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I slept really good last night, no crackling in the chest. I'm still tired but feeling somewhat better. I'm going to try and skip the DayQuil this morning and see how I do but I'll take it with me just in case. I have a full day of craziness ahead if me at work. Two meetings and a think tank today, plus my special projects. I'm just glad I don't have to deal with the marketing stuff anymore that has become all consuming for those involved...so glad I saw an out and took it. Don't get me wrong I ...
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