Okay so like I surrendered my life to the Lord back in 2003 officially... but then i fell off track with studying his word and being in his presence. So here I am in 2007 trying to commit to developing a better relationship with him instead of just walking around saying I am a Christian.

Prayer is like the most difficult thing for me. Praying his Word over my life and acting upon it as well as giving him that special time so that I can be filled with his Presence in my everyday walk.

So this past week I committed to praying more and studying more and working on how angry I can be and how I can hold a grudge against anybody that crosses me or hurts me.

Yesterday I was listening to Joyce Meyer online and she was talking about how you have to embrace your enemies and pray for them. Literally pray for them to be blessed instead of cursed and how you have to walk in Love no matter what- something that is really hard for me to do when you cross me.
So last night, out the blue because I certainly wasn't thinking about it, I said my prayers over my marriage from my book - Prayers that avail much for mothers- and then I got on my knees and prayed that God help me to become a more loving person and not hold grudges so much and Animosity in my heart- a huge prayer for me. I then prayed for people that I had issues with- that I felt had crossed me and I was no longer speaking to but I see them everyday. I prayed that they were blessed abundantly in any and all that they seek to do.

I was surprised at myself- but I realized that I was finally sacrificing my flesh and being obedient to God. Bishop Hash (the bishop of the church I attend) was saying that sometimes you simple don't want to do what the Word of God says but if you do it things will turn out better than you acting out of the flesh. Putting the flesh into submission is hard but it can be done and you should look at it as if you are being obedient to God instead of letting your fleshly pride control you.

So I was determined that no matter what i was going to start back being cordial to these people that I felt had crossed me. I started with one this morning- she had a bunch of stuff in her hands and as we crossed paths face to face I said- You got your hands full there. She replied with a chuckle- Yes I sure do. I offered to open the door for her but didn't need too because it was a push door. She said that she had it and I said okay and continued on my path. 1st Test passed.
Later this morning I found myself face to face with the other individual and I looked up with a smile on my face to say Good Morning but to my surprise she beat me too it and said - Good Morning Patrice. we basically said it simultaneously except I didn't use her name. I was astonished that she spoke first because I have dealt with this person before on not so good terms and she is just as stubborn as I "formerly" was.

So I thought to myself- wow, my prayers worked fast...
Just imagine how the prayers that I am covering my husband and marriage with are going to manifest!



Everything was High-
Today... odd...my calories went over because I was eating out the pan the stouffers skillet stuff I made and I end up eating half the pan- which was half the package. But it was really ironic how my calories were way over but my fat didn't get anywhere near as high as I have seen it do in the past. My protein was still less than 100 grams. And my carbs was completely overboard. All from one meal...