Okay so I contacted the clinic this morning and I asked could I be switched to another dietician that I had worked with before that I had a good report with. The doctor there talked to me for a long time and he told me to send over my food diary for him to analyze. He called me back and we went DAY BY DAY over the last two weeks! I SOOOO NEEDED THAT HELP!
I mean everyone doesn't learn like others do and sometimes things need to be pointed out a different way. I NEEDED someone to go over my day- not just a summary of everything like the dietician was doing. We discussed my fat grams in detail and he showed me exactly where each ( I mean every single day for the last two weeks!) where i was messing up. He told me that it was like one meal everyday that was throwing me off where i was getting too much fat. He told me that he can see where i focus on calories but he told me to switch it and try to focus on fat grams instead. We discussed a lot- almost an hour worth of details. He told me I eat too much red meat too and that he didn't see enough chicken and fish and to try and focus on that. we talked about a lot and I see where I am going wrong now.

but uhm... why couldn't the dietician do this? So anyway, he told me that she was just as "frustrated" with me as I was with her. Well HEIDO HO HUM! Good! if you can't take the time to do your job then BOUNCE! I got switched to back to DIxie and we already have our next two appointments scheduled. My doctor told me to email him my food diary every three days so we can catch issues early to work on them and he also said he has a woman that is doing very well that is local that he wants to see if I can buddy up with.

I feel better... MUCH better and MORE determined now too. You just wait until my next weigh-in... won't it be funny when I go weigh in and I have lost a lot more weight? Sometimes you just need more detail direction... but it has to be delivered the right way. I don't take sarcasm or scolding well. Talk to me like I am an adult and help me see what I am not seeing. Just because i am not seeing something doesn't mean you have the right to address me like I am an idiot. I think you are more of an idiot if you aren't versatile enough to know how to show or express things in a different way without ridicule.

So i am on to a better road... I almost gave up this morning (and breakfast shows it) but he said even that can be saved and rectified. So I am still on this bandwagon.