I am proud so far of today... I have decided to break my fat grams down into 15 gram increments per meal. So by focusing on that it is making a HUGE difference in my selections. I am excited to see the changes once they begin to take effect, but I know I need at least two weeks of consistently eating correctly to see a difference. Who knows- I might get close to my thanksgiving goal after all.
I pulled my CK book back out to have it at my side instead of logging what i eat after the fact. That helps a lot and is a huge key. It helped me make a really good decision this morning when it came to stopping and getting some breakfast at a fast food joint. Those fat grams was a serious key but at the same time I don't feel like i am on a low-fat diet. I am allowed 46 grams per day no more than 50 grams. So 15x3 =45 and i have about 6 grams to go to snacks.

Sometimes this weight loss thing gets hard but I like that I don't have restrictions- just that I need to make really good decisions.

One thing my doctor told me is that each day has to be a committment. There can't be days where I simply don't care. We all slip up... but he said I need to do my best to not just "throw" a day or even have a free for all day. He said the best mindset is to wake up every morning knowing that I have a goal.

I told him how I really slack on the weekends... I actually didn't think my comments would trigger anything specific. But I told him that most weekends I just lay around on the couch. I don't eat a lot so my logic was that there wasn't a problem. But I like how he explained to me that if I had one bad day that week and then on the weekend I just lay around and didn't do anything- even if I eat lower calories on that day... I could totally be sabatoging all my efforts. He said that he didn't want me to think of this as a chore but I did have to re-establish some really good habits. Like eating a good breakfast- low in fat every morning- even the weekends. Getting in low-fat wholesome snacks and he said I seriously needed to work on my protein- without just adding in a bunch of red meat.

I like the way he has redirected me to look at my fat grams first- THEN the calories...it is a HUGE difference... I was focusing the other way around. I don't think I did it intentionally but I really just felt like- if I get my calories right, then I should be fine.

Everything happens for a reason. If my dietician hadn't been so reserved and sarcastic then I wouldn't have gotten frustrated with the little bit of feedback she was giving me. The feedback she was giving me didn't empower me to make a change. Two or three suggestions in a 30 minute session wasn't equipping me with all that I needed to make changes. Heck I sorta feel like instead of saying- You have 46 grams of fat per day to use maybe SHE should have come up with the idea of allocating 15 grams of fat per meal. I mean isn't she the dietician??

I mean Yes, granted, some things you need to do on your own. You need to figure things out for yourself but if you see that I am lost and I am upset and confused with how things are going DIG DEEPER! Its YOUR job! I understand totally now why I struggled with WW... I just would always run out of points and go over. I was confused because I was like- hmmm I ate within my points but I have none left and I am starving. I knew that WW took fiber into effect and I knew somethings were worse then others- but for me as an individual I need to see the fine print. The fat part just never registered with me with food. All I knew was that bacon was only 2 points for 2 slices. But I never took into account how that bacon would fill me up temporary. that those 2 points was Sooo valuable in the long run. Now that I am understanding better... I feel like I can keep going. I also understand why i gave up so easily so many times. At the end of the day I really need to know how all the pieces fit together.

That just proves to me- a degree, a piece of paper saying you know how to do something doesn't always amount up to what it suppose to be. I am sure she has been doing her job for years... but if you can't figure out different ways to reach everyone- Are you Really Successful? She gave up on me just as fast as I gave up on her. I don't feel bad about it because i seeked out new assistance... but she on the otherhand in my humble opinion only defeated herself. If I were a dietician I would feel defeated. But that is just me.

Just like now... if i can't figure it out in my job... I don't give up. I keep pushing until I figure it out. I take a different approach day in and day out. I am still working on perfecting my day to day routine to make it more efficient.

So anyway, I got one day down and I have 30 to go before my next weigh in.