Okay, so I fell off the earth a bit there. Had a tough week starting with last Thursday...
Never fails- the enemy always attacks when you have a blessing in store. I faltered- he may think he won the battle but the war is never over...

Thanks everyone for your comments on my last entry-
Tracey I will be taking you up on that offer for helping on my resume.

I got a little scared there for a bit... I starting thinking- Can I really get this job? And If I do, can I handle it? I have never in my life thought that way about a job. It confirms to me even more that I must apply for it and have Faith that it is mines and continue to claim it. I got scared because it is a really tough job and the ironic part about it- if I do great on it- I get promoted but promotions also means that I am subject to being moved a lot. something that I don't think I am interested in. So I was having second thoughts. But then I told myself- hmmm it could potentially be years before a change like that occurs and who knows where I will be by then to stifle myself now? And heck, if the time comes and I don't want to relocate my family again- not only will I have proven that I can handle a strenous management style job but I will also show longetivity on a job- only boosting my options for another position elsewhere. So what am I afraid of?

I think more than anything I am afraid of failing... afraid of not getting the job and not being assigned back to home and feeling like i have to continue on a different path to getting back home and securing a good job. I think I am afraid of the unknown... and I am afraid of the fact that I am not a perfect christian and I have a lot to focus on with my walk with Christ. I keep telling myself- He is my Father, and he Loves Me unconditionally and the areas that I am weak in he will help me to get stronger in but that he doesn't punish me because of them. So I am fighting fear and as Joyce Meyers said- Do it Afraid...

So everyone, pray for me. Pray that I don't be fearful, that my resume is superb and that all doors are opened for me and obstacles are moved.

Below is the email I received when all of this first begin and I am holding on to these words and stepping out on faith.




As a believer in Jesus and a child of His, God is on your side today! If you haven’t thought about it yet today, remember, you are created for greatness. You have the seed of Almighty God inside of you. There is no obstacle that can stop you. There is no disadvantage that can hold you back. You’re in the palm of God’s hand, and He has equipped and empowered you for everything. When God is on your side, He sets the right people in your path. In fact, He’s already released favor into your future. He’s planning for you to come in to new seasons of increase. Have you given up on a dream? God is on your side, and He wants to resurrect it. Have you given up on a family member? God is on your side, and He wants to restore that relationship. God is on your side, and He has a plan for victory in every area of your life. Let that sink down into your heart today. Begin to expect His favor. Expect Him to work in your life. Focus on the fact that God has equipped you. He has anointed you. Your best days are still out in front of you! If God is for you, no one can rise against you! As you meditate on this promise, it will become real to you. You will walk in the favor and victory God has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today

Heavenly Father, thank You for being on my side today. Thank You for equipping and empowering me to accomplish everything You’ve called me to. Give me a deeper revelation of Your love for me today so that I can live the abundant life You have prepared for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.