Well, I have started yet another journey into "self-discovery" and weight loss... I am 190 pounds (holy ing !).. thats 10 pounds heavier than when I gave birth to my daughter!!! Not to mention that I lost all but 15 pounds of it by the time she was 2! Wake up call? She's 14 on February 6th BOOO! So here I go. trying to be mature and responsible. I know I can do it, it's just that some days I don't really care about any goal more than the taste of the food I am about to consume. WTF is wrong with me? I think I am a food addict. I am a smart, pretty, well educated mother of two with an adoring husband and a great job (RN) that I love. I know that there is a part of me that HATES where I live (NE) because the weather generally sucks and there is not much in the way of natural beauty or what I like to call "Big Water". I grew up in Upstate NY so know what natural beauty is and there is ALWAYS something to do outdoors there. It doesn't matter what season. Not true in NE... enough complaining though. I need to choose happiness and contentment, that is the way of the enlightened mind. Whats the point of aging if we can't become more enlightened as we learn? So today is day 2 for me and calories haven't been a problem, so far. I would like to buy a nutritionist's time to come to my house and teach my family about weight loss and eating healthy because if i say it, its just me nagging. so maybe when I loose 10# that will be my reward... A good thought that will not only hep me, but set my kids up for success as young adults when they go to college. whie I am thinking of it, one my biggest barriers is that take my job as a mom very seriously, sometimes to the detriment of my self care. Well, there you have it. My name is Wendy and I am a Fat-ass. I surrender to the Calorie King way of life until I finally get it and incorporate being healthy back into my life for good