Yesterday I got back on track. Much better than the day before. I made wiser choices. I worked hard all day long cooking dinner for 120+ people(a church dinner) all day long--so I did have to miss my workout. I really thought I would get to fit it in but there was just not any extra time to do it. By the time the dinner was over, I still had to go out to dinner with my family for my father's birthday dinner. I didn't get home to put my kids to bed till 8:3o-way past their bedtime. I was freakin exhausted by then.
So even with no exersize I still don't consider it a bad day. I stayed in calorie range.
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I hate TOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Cramps! Bloating. Irritable me. Ever since Andrew was born and I had my tubes tied and I went off the pill its been HORRIBLE. I think I am going to ask my Doc abt going back on the pill. I hate to do it just due to the money,but I hate this time of month so much now. I am just miserable. My lower back hurts, my abd cramps.....WHINING HERE BUT I AM MISERABLE. I so don't want to go workout. But NO EXCUSES MAY means I must. So I will be on my way shortly. Don't know if I will be able to do my run, but I plan to push through and try my best. I hope once I start I will just be able to knock it out.
Maybe Body Flow's stretching parts will be good, feel good afterwords anyways today??????
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My best friend's breast cancer surg isn' t going to be till May 21. We really though it would be much sooner. Thats so far away when she has such a rapidly growing cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She is going to leave on Sun and fly to the Mayo Clinic for a third opinion. Her uncle works there and has lined up appts for her with oncologists and surgons and radiologist......I think its a good idea...prestigious place and all....she is just so tired of all the appts and tests...very tired and wary and just ready to have the surgery over with and on to the next stage. I am hoping that they would have a better regimen for treatment protocol with all the research they that they have there. Here in SC we are not exactly the center for research on breast cancer. I feel like this is a good move. I wish I could go with her for support. I don't have anyone I can leave my kids with for those days. I really wish someone was going with her. I am really freaked out about this. 30 years old with advanced breast cancer. I can't loose her. I know that breast cancer is very treatable so often. She has a long road ahead but there is a lot of hope.

HOPE! Trust in the Lord. GOD TAKE CARE OF BECKY. GIVE HER PEACE and strength to deal in this time of need. Give me peace also. Give me strength to support my friend through this process. Help her to deal with the though of not being able to have her own children probably. Thats so hard. I can't imagine that loss. Not only is looising both of her breast but also her ability to have her own children due to the chemo. That is the part that she is having such a hard time with right now. Give her strength, allow her to just feel your love and your peace around her during this trip to the Mayo clinic.