305.9
The final gain figure after the holidays, I thought I had done better than that. Yet I pulled the “Ostrich Stance”, as long as I do not look it will be OK. Denial, I took the time off from the gym, stopped tracking my calories and even taking my BP. I see it is an all or none with me. Well I am in the “Options”, program with our insurance Kaiser. I am now just starting my 2nd week and my weigh in was 301.4, going in the right direction again. One of the new things I have added is making an artistic journaling of my journey. I am using this to help me get past the rough moments when I feel I need to eat off-plan. I also fine going to the required meetings by Kaiser supportive, even if the drive time is over 2 hours for a 1.5 hour class. It is a large class with many on the same path I am, yet all different in ways. Over 50 of us bound for better choices and regaining our health. Choices, Change and Commitment, the three “C’s”, for my success. It is not about weight loss, it is about healthy. If I see my goal in weight once I reach that goal I have only the frame-work for relapsing back to old habits, bad choices. So to understand my weight problem and what triggers my unhealthy actions can only lead to understanding for myself and success. Even having surgery in the end is only a tool, it is not the answer to my healthy choices. So the journey has begun, 12 weeks, 10% of my body weight and implementing the tools given to me in my Options class, taking on choices to have a healthy life style.