This is my tattoo on my left wrist. I THINK it says "Anything is Possible" in Arabic. If you're fluent in Arabic and it says something completely different than what I've been led to believe, please don't tell me. My heart can't take knowing I have "What a dufus" tattooed on my wrist for life. Thanks.

Wow...So last night I had an...interesting...night. Drank a little, and I said "hey, If I'm going to "cheat", I'm going all the way". Wow, just looked at my calories and i don't even know what it's LIKE to consume 3,000 calories!!! Drinking is so stupid. I don't even know why I do it. I'm DEFINITELY watching my drinking in VA. Drinking just gives way too TONS of unnecessary calories. Gross. Anywho, I'm going to have to go workout today because I feel terrible. I guess it's just one of those things you gotta get outta your system though! Whatever, I'm not going to let a stupid night discourage me.

Anyways, so today I was walking around in my new coat (which I absolutely adore and adds about $100,000 to my physical appearance of wealth) and I was kidding in my mind thinking that one of these days, when I'm smaller, I'm going to wear my coat for whomever my special someone is...and only the coat. LoL sorry, TMI I know. Remember when Rose says that about her diamond in Titanic? Can I just say that I absolutely love that movie and am for some reason extremely fascinated by the disaster? I watched the Celebrity Paranormal Project this AM (you know how the night's episode comes on earlier in the day @ like 11) and I can't tell if Debra Wilson is just luny or if she was really posessed. Evander Holyfield's "holiness" annoyed me. I also really liked Debra's tattoos. I think I am going to get a tattoo when I go to VA. I'm going to get an Ohm between my shoulder blades I think and then get "this too shall pass" underneath it. This probably sounds dorky, but I really want a tattoo of the serenity prayer. Maybe I'll get that in the middle of my back on a scroll. That would be uber-cute! Oh, ideas.

I was going to get my nails done before I leave but I've decided to save my damn money & just get jeans and this cute shirt I saw at JCPenney, some earrings and be DONE! I feel like I've been spending bookoo money, but I think back and I really haven't, I don't think. Whatever.

OK, question of the day, what the hell does Pomegranate taste like and why are they so popular right now? Are they in style or in season or something? Everytime I go to the store, I see them on sale and I don't get it. What part do you eat? Questions, questions.

Oh, and because I am human and inherently love talking about myself, here are MORE facts!

*I'm a Reality TV junkie, forreal
*I'm borderline obsessed with celebrity gossip
*I have 3 tattoos - an ankh on my lower back, a stupid tattoo i got outta boredom that will remain nameless, and "anything is possible" in arabic on my left wrist
*By the time I'm 30, I would like to have achieved the following things:
-learned to harmonize voices
-be fluent in ASL and Spanish
-have my masters degree in something
-learn to play Piano
-started a charity program for elementary school kids during xmas season
-attempted (and maybe successful) plus-sized modeling

6:54pm
I don't know who here is an MTV fan, but I absolutely LOVE Rob & Big. They are so cute. They're like a married couple. Their "friendship" is borderline homosexual, but its still cute nonetheless!! Them and that ugly dog are a cute family. Sorry, just had to put that in there.

7;45PM
I just made "chicken salad" and it's gross. Pisses me off. Now I have to figure out what the hell I'm going to eat tomorrow.

9:26pm
I'm trying to tell myself that talking to him is a good idea, but I don't know if I'm lying to myself. I hate this feeling - vulnerability. I hate letting someone in only to be let down. I almost wish I hadn't even contacted him. I don't understand why I get the kinds of people I do. I don't get it. I'm so sick of being toyed with and dealing with stupid people who say they'll call and don't. And it's like I get so caught up in this idealized reality that I ignore true reality. I don't get it. Why can't I find someone who is worth my time? Why can't I find someone who will respect me and treat me like an equal and just value me? I keep saying it, but I don't get it. What is wrong with me?!?!??!