I went to the gym again tonight, my goal is to go every day, which I haven't been doing. A day off here or two or three off there.....it's not going to work that way. It was late but it worked out that I didn't have time to do treadmill. Elliptical and weight machines were all I had time for. It's ok, it's something and better than nothing......

I weighed myself this morning and it said I was 228.4......huge eye roll. Whatever. I know I didn't loose 4 pounds in two days. I mean I had a rocking workout last night, but seriously? 4 pounds in two days? Um....yeah ok whatever.

I'm going with the DH to Kansas City for a business meeting with the other partners of DH's company and their wives.....so I bought a new outfit. Still in plus sizes which is depressing. My belly is so gross which is even more depressing. It is what it is, I'm trying to fix it and really, truly 23 pounds is not a large amount compared to the 130 I still have to loose.

Everyday takes much skill to have patience. I have to will myself to take a deep breath and remember where it is I am going and only patience and tenacity are going to get me there. It will take however long it takes. I just know I can do this, it's hard. I've been here before I don't want to come back. I never want to see the number 232 on my scale again.

Stop self sabotaging with negative thoughts.

Staying at a hotel tomorrow night......I'll be in the gym there too.