I started my routine this week. I never stopped weighing my food while on maintenance. I learned you should log your food at least three or four times a week during maintenance in order to keep yourself on track. Then you can cut that down to two or three times time as long as you keep up with the weighing and measuring in ordering to make sure you keep your portion control under wraps. I had a routine and I followed that. That pattern of eating along with eating the right foods kept me from gaining any weight these past two and half months even though in the back of my mind I was constantly worried I would gain weight. Nadine helped eased my worry when she reminded me it would take eating 3500 extra calorie to gain a pound. Since I exercise and still watch what I eat, I have only fluctuated by two pounds which is a normal thing to do. What I need to do now is to build up my body in order to be able to exercise every day. I am now able to do that with minimal nerve pain afterward. I have a long ways to go. I have decided I need to try and see If I can lose that last 12 - 15 pounds just to see if I can really do it. That's why I am going to start logging daily again. I never really have tried. I mean put my heart into it. I will try this month and see if I get any where. If after a month it doesn't work, then I will be content to stay where I am. So here goes, back to work.
Today's topic is Denial. Yes that little word that keeps us from being successful. Webster defines it as : "A refusal to admit the truth or reality." In relationship to food, denial often means we don't see we have a problem, or we see the problem and don't believe we can do something about. For those of us who do believe we can do something about it, it takes a different form. We cheat on our diet and make excuses about it and come up with great reasons why we can get by with it. Or in my case why not taking off those last pounds won't hurt me, it will be ok to stay where I am, after all I have already lost 92 pounds ! Reality check time !!! Denial is us often trying to run from the truth because it hurts. I won't go into all the root causes of that, that would take weeks to go into. I had to dig deep into myself to ask myself why I didn't want to finish the job I started. I was in denial about the still health risk of still having body fat around my abdomen. I also was in denial about what it would do to my mental state if I didn't complete my task, or try. I felt defeated. So try I must. Now, you see where I am coming from. Are you denial today about something ? Here at CK we deal with food issues and talk about them, but if you have other issues there are plenty of other groups out there that deal with other issues that can help you out. I am learning that out in my Sunday class at church. It's a week 8 step program for any body with habits, hangups, an addictions to over come. Me, I went because of my food issues and found I needed a lot more healing in my life for " other issues ". I am an emotional eater for a reason. I feel like a load has been lifted from my shoulders at just the right time in my life. I am finally getting down to the real reason of why I am an emotional eater and learning to control those emotions and learning to except myself for who I am.
Off to the gym...goal this week is to make it there five days this week. I have a busy week so this may be hard.
Xena the warrior dog loves to walk at night, so she keeps me walking in the evening.'
Hubby is working on his car. He will show it in the annual Mustang car show this weekend.
Nothing else new.
Have a good week.