OTTER's CalorieKing Blog

Renewing Statement: Place of my own. But finding authentic self will take time. Slow process to regain CK skills. Mindful of healthy ways for BODY, HEART, MIND, SPIRIT. If I were looking for a metaphor, I might say this is my time in the desert.

Renewed Statement: Moving toward divorce, considering how to renew my life and find my authentic self. Looking forward to refresh my Calorie King skills once I am settled into a place of my own. Keeping me going: friendship, family, FAITH.

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Advent Season - in the thick of it...

Thursday, December 10th 2009

So easy to be grumpy at this time of year, and I really don't want to be. So I'm focusing on.

ADVENT means coming
The coming (soon) of light
The coming (soon) of the one I recognize as Lord
The coming (soon) of a new year.

Recognition of ABUNDANCE in my life brings sweetness, joy, and satisfaction. Worry about shortages has me live in fear, and creates a curmudgeonly attitude.

Since I simply can't afford gift-giving of things this year, I have no worries about that. ...

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I'm not the only one!

Monday, November 16th 2009

Had an argument with husband on Saturday. Had gone over to our house to take care of laundry and get caught up on our combined financial issues. One careless comment led to some name calling. I grew tired, and angry and then stormed out. [I was there against the better judgment of my heart, still not able to let go of using the machines in the house, the comfort of the views from the windows.]

Felt pretty righteous in my anger. Until this morning. I was reading my divorce recovery boo...

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Turned a corner? . . .

Saturday, November 14th 2009

Funny, I don't feel I have much to say today. But there is a sense that I've turned a corner. I'm ready to leave the neighborhood of "poor me" and move on to the neighborhood of "yay me!"

Translation: Sitting around and waiting to feel better about my life won't work much. But choosing to do things that are meaningful (from the mundane [dishwashing] to the sublime [ceramics work]) will make me feel better almost immediately.

Diaries have shown me where I need to g...

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Wow, so easy to eat too much! . . .

Thursday, November 12th 2009

First week I've used the diary for more than one day since last October (2008!).

Problem places - after dinner eating! And free food anywhere.

Goal: Set meal plans for the day. Learn to stick with them - again.

What a goofy time in my life.

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Good today: no snacking outside planned snacks. Moderate meals & snacks. Said "no" to unplanned free food!

Mindful choices...

Monday, November 9th 2009

Good intentions written about yesterday are hard to enact today.

Ain't that often the way with Mondays?! :-)

Still - reminding myself that I can think in terms of ones and halfs instead of twos (I don't need two slices of pizza, I could enjoy two half slices, though).

Also reminding myself that in each choice is a step towards a future of fulfillment or a future of regret. Does that sound too harsh? It feels like what I need.

Okay, back to my grindstone....

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