PLATEOFSTARS's CalorieKing blog
Thursday, Jul 22 2010 - Scared
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So this blog post is about being scared.
Mortified, in fact, about the possibility of gaining the weight back. I've worked so... so... hard this past year. The idea of ever getting to a place where I let that go, that I don't pay attention or respect the hard work I've done is really incredibly frightening.
I've mentioned a few times before that I've been keeping front and profile pics of myself since I joined CK. I'd lost about 25 lbs before joining CK but hadn't started the picture project until September.
Today was my monthly picture day.
I have just 10 more pounds to go... but how far I've come!
I look at the comparison picture (below) and my own jaw drops.
I look like a completely different person, even to myself!
I mean, I recognize myself from before, but don't at the same time. I don't know how to describe it.
So, apologies for the picture of me in my skibbies, but here it is, the bare and exposed benefit of my hard work.
Mortified, in fact, about the possibility of gaining the weight back. I've worked so... so... hard this past year. The idea of ever getting to a place where I let that go, that I don't pay attention or respect the hard work I've done is really incredibly frightening.
I've mentioned a few times before that I've been keeping front and profile pics of myself since I joined CK. I'd lost about 25 lbs before joining CK but hadn't started the picture project until September.
Today was my monthly picture day.
I have just 10 more pounds to go... but how far I've come!
I look at the comparison picture (below) and my own jaw drops.
I look like a completely different person, even to myself!I mean, I recognize myself from before, but don't at the same time. I don't know how to describe it.
So, apologies for the picture of me in my skibbies, but here it is, the bare and exposed benefit of my hard work.
12 comments so far.
12.
a decade ago
Wow! These pics are so inspiring! You have done such a good job! You do have what it takes to continue!
by RHOGO78
11.
a decade ago
OH SNAP!!! Wholly mackeral, toledo, waterfalls, watevah! YOU LOOK AMAZING!
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI
10.
a decade ago
You look amazing!! What an amazing job you have done and how far you have come indeed!!
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I think you're not alone in your fears. You're so strong though, and you have made moving and exercising a part of your everyday life. I believe that you will be just fine. Just keep your health and wellbeing in the forefront of your mind. I have faith in you girl!! NO FEAR PRETTY LADY!!!
by TNYBUBBLZ
9.
a decade ago
You may be scared about regaining--I think all of us are--but you've got enough courage to put it all out there like that.
:clap: You look great!
=D
I was listening to the radio yesterday (MPR) and the topic was obesity, etc. The expert was remarking about what a hard task it is and what kind of dedication it takes to lose weight and to keep it off--that essentially it's a constant battle. So, I guess it's something we'll always have to keep in mind and not to forget the hard work we've done, but like Aliza said, trusting ourselves to make the right choices and stick with our healthy habits.
Oh, and that expert also mentioned how crucial it is to have support, so at least you've got that going for you.
by ICEDINOGIRL
8.
a decade ago
WTG!!!
by LYNNABEL
7.
a decade ago
Holy cats woman! You have done a phenomenal job!!!
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You look fantastic!
by THORNEAPPLE
6.
a decade ago
Wow, what an amazing difference. You look great Nicole!
That's the one thing I wish I'd done when I started, taken pictures, but alas, I have no good pics for comparison.
by MYSQRL
5.
a decade ago
You look amazing! I think everyone has the fear of gaining back the weight. We just have to hope that we learned the tools to keep us on track. You are such a strong woman and I think you will never go back to the before pics!
Hugs!
by MRSDSB
4.
a decade ago
Nicole, you look amazing! And, I am sure, you physically feel amazing. What an awesome journey for you.
:thumbu2: Work on that trust that Aliza is talking about - the emotional part. The part that can - and has - fractured all of us. All of this is about balance. You are a Strong, HEALTHY, Determined, Vibrant, Smart young woman. You can do it... I got faith in you.... 
=D
by MAURABARTLEY
3.
a decade ago
WOW!! You have done such a great job.
:y:
by BASHY10
2.
a decade ago
Wow! What a difference. You look great.
by MENOKEO
1.
a decade ago
Wolf call! Looking good kid!
;)
you should do the same thing, take a writing snapshot, of what habits you used during the "old" you and how you're living life and utilizing new skills now and how you've metamorphised into this stronger you. Fear of regaining weight is actually a symptom of not trusting yourself. Put that baby to sleep and really focus on the skills and habits that have gotten you to where you're at now, and where you visualiize yourself looking and feeling in the future.
by PAPERBACKNOVEL