PRNCSSGRL's May 2010 CalorieKing Blog
Moving on and moving forward...
Sunday, May 9th 2010
I allowed myself 24 hours to be emotionally distraught over my first weight gain and today I'm ready to move on and move forward. Here are some things I know to be true about my life right now:I do not weigh 263 pounds
I am not living the life of my brother
I am not sitting in front of the computer for hours and hours on end
I am moving more today than I ever have in my entire life
My muscles are getting stronger
I look forward to getting up in the morning
I am inspired by folk...
Saturday, May 8th 2010
I knew it when I wrote yesterday's post that today would be the first time in this journey that I would have a gain. You try to not let it get to you but it's hard. I try to say "it's only 2.2 pounds" but with what's been happening to me this week it feels like a ton. I try to stay in the moment but I can hear that old tape recorder warming up in my head saying things like "I knew you would gain eventually", "All that hard work and still you failed", "Everyone ...Fubariffic / A Special Shout Out to BBP / Pre OWiS Week in Review
Friday, May 7th 2010
FubarifficI feel like this is the only way to describe how my week has been. It has seriously sucked. I'm trying to keep it together but in light of my brother's situation it's not happening. My brother has left the hospital and as of today is refusing to seek any sort of in-patient treatment. How you go from having alcohol related seizures, almost dying, being hooked up to ventilator, hallucinating and losing all motor skills to walking out of the hospital without a plan of action is way ...
Thursday, May 6th 2010
Oh man I am feeling so much better. Its amazing what 24 hours away from an emotionally draining situation can do for your psyche. I slept pretty damn good. Ive easily consumed my gallon of water. My food intake has been healthy. I had a great session with Superman this morning. Hard to believe but it was better than Monday. He is pushing so hard and I am surviving. We talked a lot about how hard this is for me and how appreciative I am that he is a no-nonsense kind of trainer. I told him th...In search of normalcy / 12.10 / picture proof.
Wednesday, May 5th 2010
*Deep sigh*The last three days have been well they just have been. I am walking around in a cloud of confusion and disappointment. Sadness and anger. I havent slept well. I havent eaten well. Im definitely not drinking enough water. The only saving grace is Ive been to the gym every morning and sweating through my feelings as I tackle another day.
Ive been with my brother for the last three days and it has sapped any semblance of normalcy out of my life. I need to get that ...