I am so sick of starting to "try to lose weight". I try all the time, but I don't stick to any plan. It is depressing. I feel like a complete failure. But I know that I should be able to do it. I just don't plan well, nor stick to my plans.

I feel like if I don't do this I might as well give up on my marriage. This is the last time I can be here. I really need to drop at least 10 lbs to show that I can really do this. It doesn't seem like a lot, but it is so important. Maybe thinking about what is at stake will make me focus.

This picture epitomizes my current situation. I am really heavy, but the socializing makes it so hard to do anything about it.