Ok, so I am extremely stressed today. I feel totally overwhelmed and I can not get control of my panic. I have not freaked out and gone crazy w/ me eating...yet. Work is crazy. We had employees yelling at each other yesterday. Now they are all fighting and mad and one didn't come in this am. I HATE being a boss. Plus, my personal life is in chaos. Jacob's bday is Saturday. We still haven't gotten the plans for his party. We always do it after Thanksgiving since it always falls during Thanksgiving break. On top of that, we are looking at houses, thinking of moving and i haven't even bought 1 Christmas gift. Now I understand why my Mom was always so anti-holidays!! I really owe her an apology for all the times I gave her a hard time for not liking Christmas. I'm sure being a single mom and sometimes working 2 jobs has a lot to do w/ why she always hated the holidays.

Diet wise I am doing pretty well. Excercised yesterday w/ trainer, sore, but proud of myself for sticking to it. SO PROUD of my Loser Club I started. In the first week we lost 38+ pounds as a group. WOW! Maybe there is something to this group support business. Anyway, no time to ramble on, but just need to vent.