Good mornng. I just LOVE Sunday's, somehow they feel slower, calm, peaceful and relaxing. There is something special about them like the nostalgic memory of a warm summers day as a child; something so peaceful. Its raining here but it doesnt bother me, it sounds like nature's heart beat, rhythmic and gentle. The swoosh sound of vehicles passing by along with the gentle hum of the window fan and the rain falling is so relaxing. I'm sitting here slowly sipping my coffee, just tuning into nature's music, listening and relaxing.

I reluctantly stepped on the scale today...208.9 not bad I guess, still having "digestive issues" , I got a little desperate last night and hit the internet looking for a holistic approach to my particular problem. Its amazing how much stupid stuff is out there, but I stumbled upon a youtube video for a colonic massage apparently it also works for colicky babies... http://m.yutube.com/watch?vBdWbYakqGo (the smiley auto replsced the = D but no spaces).
I followed the instructions, massaging for an hour, nothing moved but some of my back discomfort and pain i associated with my sciatica eased. I took it a step further and used my home TENS machine to massage and stimulate muscles and intestine, which also relieved more of the back discomfort/pain. I was thinking of trying the massage as a daily routine while listening to a zen cd I have, maybe the two together will help with more than just the digestive issues...if nothing else I'll be relaxed.

If nothing happens today I will ask the GI doctor to send me for the MRI, I didn't think I was in pain from not going because the pain was in my back on the left side just above where the sciatic nerve is, I assumed the sciatica was the cause; plus a new issue has manifested, now my legs from the knees down fall asleep while sitting on "the hard seat". It wasn't until last night when "the back" pain returned that I realized after the cleanse it had gone away completely. All the pressure is on the left side, even as I massaged last night it felt better as if I was massaging an stiff muscle. I guess im becoming more in tune with my body, maybe I just needed to shutup and listen.

This journey has manifested from weightloss into an awakening of consciousness for my being. I have learned so much, more than I did the first time I did CK all those years ago. I'm not sure if its because I'm using the blogs this time, because I'm almost ten years older, because I have taken an interest in my overall health at this point in my life; maybe its all of them. I just know I've opened myself up and made a concious effert to release negativity, released control of things I can't control and somehow I am becoming TUNED INTO my body. What a wild ride of self discovery this has become, I can't wait to see what's around the bend!

I'm sorry if the GI topic is TMI, its just something major I'm dealing with and since I'm not sure if its medical or diet related I decided to share in case someone else experiencing the same problems reads this, maybe it will help. Now onto a less intimate topic.

The hubby and I took the grand baby out shopping at Costco and Home Depot yesterday, he was so well behaved as usual. My husband stole the cart, he was pushing our grandson along the isles, rubbing his back when we stopped to reassure him and taking to him...he was the proud grandpa. Usually its just me and the baby shopping, but yesterday my husband decided to go with. It was really adorable. They have such a bond.

I found wild sockeye Salmon filets at the market and cooked them up with roasted aspargus (for me), roasted red potatoes (for him), and garden salads. It was pretty fantastic!. Notsure yet what tonight will be but its a little cooler today and Im in the mood to cook, to create, I don't cook like most, I hardly ever measure, its a palm of this a handful or pinch of that...I mostly eyeball it unless im following a recipe. Nothing ever comes out the same twice in a row...I guess it keeps it interesting.

Well, Its time to put my laundry goddess hat on but first I leave you with the quote that spoke to me today...

"Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hold onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"
~ Mary Manin Morrissey

We all have the power inside to do this and WE WILL succeed!!!

Have a beautiful sunday.



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